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Tuesday, February 28, 2006
am online talking to eugene. eugene tan! haha.. tt silli guy is still as crazy and crappy as ever. He's supposed to owe me two meal deals (since J1 when we agreed to treat each oth for the number of A's we get for our exams) tt kuku.. and he insisted tt I owe him one cos he's gg to be a 'man'. get teh idea?
saw the KSS guys (nxt door - nxt cls) in teh chatroom. they're still as crappy and funnie as ever. talk abt wad sing the sch song (I heard anyw the sch song's changed ), shout for Mrs Ram (reminds me of the 'pregnant' tingy), the new principal, abt thai ann in the wad thailand royal duno wad force. haha.. those were the days..
let me recount wad happend since sat
Sat
Morning - Teen games briefing 9.30 - 11.30
Interval (lunch) - talk to hannah (the talkative girls meet)
Aftnn - area mtg (1pm - 4.30pm with dessert interval)
Traveling = napping
Evening - church (6pm - 11pm)
Tt's how sat's gone. Utterly gone.
Sun
bring stdt to church (a lil disappointed)
reach plaza at 12pm. (til 9pm)
did stuff (while waiting for waiyin to go thru plans)
cell grp mtg - we were talking abt influencing the younger ones. I rmb how Hsiao Ling influenced me to listen to sermon and to take down notes. Heh..
bcl mtg
'lunch' (at 4pm) with zixin
talk to wai yin (gd time of catch up n talking)
did stuff
went shopping (tt's when I know dere's dis chocolate called 'dua beh long' wahhaha - toblerone!)
Mon
org chem lect
met sheila
org chem tut (meet the genius tutor! he's not reali a genius but he's weir smart. furthermore, he looks like a kid. so a kid teaching = genius)
print LSM (life science) notes
saw fwen - study at lao di fang
collect notes
LSM lecture (bimbotic talk: my 'bimbotic' fren (haha) said I look nice in the skirt. and I dun look like a kid with my hairrr down.
and she saved the day. I was asking if we were to remember all the bacteria given in teh lecture - there were so many. The lecturer looked at me and said in a 'scary tone' "I thot the examples are very reduced" - she sounded irritated or sth
my fwen made a comment and we quickly left the plc)
saw fwen (I askd her to teach me how to print four slides on one page. Not tt I dun know. but my slides turn out to be smaller. she went '100 bucks an hr'. Then I photocopied her notes. The photocopying process was hilarious. tt laughing gas. we were laughin non-stop IN THE LIBRARY trying to figure out how to print the notes double-sided cos the feeder kept jamming. she insisted she knew how since tt was her job. So.. i seriously she's my laughin gas. then we had a good talk. =))
went home - studied for soci test. craziness, madness and duno wad ness.
Tues
Soci tutorial - whacked ppl again. I always ask questions but dont contribute much.
Soci test - thank God I survived.
Physical chem lect - Prof Goh stil as lame as ever. He makes me enjoy 'physics'. PHYSICal chem. Get the idea? my laughing gas suddenly burst out laughin halfway during lect. It was then tt I realised there was a guy trying to fit 2 puzzle pieces in a prog in his laptop. Apparently, the size of 1 is 10 times bigger than the other. It was reali hilarious to see him keep trying to do sth and fitting it (despite the disparity in size) I hvnt laugh so hard for ages. It was reali challenging esp when I was sitting behind, trying not to make any sound to indicate tt I was laughing at them and at teh same time trying to catch my breath.
had lunch and did work with xiu ping.
history lecture - met bryan on the way. He is dis guy whom I attempted to take his photo during my history tutorial. he's reali frenly. I got to know tt his mother's actualy a singaporean. I tink he didnt reali wana take chemistry. He said his mum wanted him to take chem. 21 dis yr. hee..
1st half: lecture (they are smart to include the 1st half to the lecture's content in the test)
2nd half: test (Thank God)
met sheila for dinner - I was so dead when I met her. So dead. I could feel my brain spinning in my head. She persuaded me to eat. She's v good with her words despite her always thinking she's weak in relating.
She shared a wonderful insight. I shared with her abt someone telling me that Roman Catholics version of 'God' is loving (not angry).
Martin Luther knew tt God is a righteous and holy God. God's holiness caused him to fear God so much that he scourged himself, put himself in discomfort to stop himself from sinning against God. When he realised from the Bible that there is 'no one righteous, not even one' that he saw that there's nothing he could do to save himself from sin. But God so lovingly sent His Son to pay for everything. All he needed to do was to trust in God to change.
God is good.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Friday, February 24, 2006
saw hou quan at boon lay mrt on tues aft my 'waffles deal' with fren. (we didnt eat waffles in the end tho but went swensen's) He's got thinner. Reali. Took a photo of him (muz make use of technology) he took half day off from his camp so he was on his way home yepz. he looked reali tired. hmms.
saw lilah today at je mrt. she's in NUS arts. there're so few ppl in NUS fr KSS. we were tryg to figure out who fr KSS went NUS. It was pathetic.
Had physical chem lect today. my chem lecturer was reali reali lame. There was a question that has 'MJ' which is the unit of one of the variables we were supposed to calculate. So he went 'MJ is not what Michael Jordan. It's mega joules'. I looked at my fren and we burst out laughing. It was reali funnie. Sorrie, I tink I hv a poor sense of humour. Muz be my fren, hai wo.. haha..
was at bb mac after a mtg. I was sitting at this common table when a gang of abt 6 ppl sat at tt table as well. I tink they were trying to drive me away bcos they wanted my seat for their frens. So they banged the table talkd v loudly. I was reali mad. In the end, I gave up the seat and left mac. I thot I shld hv graciously give up the 2 seats by shifting myself to the nxt seat. But I didnt. I wanted to do sth to show tt I was angry. But.. I'm glad I didnt. I left thinking, can these ppl use their brains? Cant they like ask politely if I could give up my seats instead of trying to chase ppl away with their not v smart tactic. No offense. Cant even communicate properly. Gdness.. Alright, I was in their league. I shall learn to be gracious.
my fren finally send the photos we took last yr when we met to catch up at jp.
pretty me, who else
jia Hui and I posing
blessed by Father; wHeE
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Yay! I'm so happieee! As happiee as a toad!!! I'm retaining my M1 line. Yay! I was gg to terminate it juz now, but the service person was talking to me (persuading in a sense) to ask me to keep it. She offered a reali gd plan for $19 per month without contract. suntalk 150 (500 SMS + free incoming + $15 free outgoing). I told her I'd get back to her. When I called back, she offered an even gooder one! $19 for students suntalk (no contract). This plan is onli for new lines but she's offering it to me who has been using M1 for 4gd yrs. (1000SMS +free incoming + $15 outgoing + outgg calls to 3 fixed lines 100% freeee) What more can I ask for? Of course, I'm keeping my line. I'm sooo pleased with M1. (Quoting from Joyce)
School's starting tml. Hmmss..
blessed by Father; wHeE
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Met Christine at lot one mac to get the Roman Catholicism book for my fwen. (Not tt I'm into R.C. The book talks abt the diff b/w Cath and Protstnt in a story form) Then studied with her b4 dinner. Lot one mac is crowded with ppl taday. There's dz, rinus, jianglin, jiayan, christopher, alvin, yanling. Had a talk with alvin. Mayb nt a talk, heard him rattling non-stop. didnt even hv chance to talk. (It's v xin ku to not b able to talk... hmmm...) nvtheless, finally heard fr him aft a zillion yrs. the shift in time for church is a case for concern reali. esp at the end of the month - area mtg, band.
had dinner with jiayan, christine, chris, dz. It was hilarious. There's dis yfc (north) ting gg ard. if you joke and less than 3 ppl laugh, you'd hv to pay a fine of $0.50. I so dread to see chris the 50cents collector. the whole dinner conversation was 'is that a joke?' if not 'is that a joke or an insult?' or '50 cents!'. And the funnie ting is dz got the idea and join in. one big joke
Dz askd if we wan dessert. So Chris went 'you have 4 choices. a) give us a treat b) give us a treat c) give us a treat or d) all of the above.
choose any of the above, there's no right or wrong.' wahaha.. tt's funniee..
I just said I shld have self-control ya. And I 'nourished' my throat with ice-kachang.
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i think the sex pheromone thing my fren talkd abt is true. At least Christine and I 'agreed' to have the same Camomile tea day.
haha, if u dun understand wad i'm saying, u're normal.
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It indeed isnt fair. When someone sins, the ppl around the person suffers the consequence. It reali hurts when someone chooses to run away and continues in her sin. I won't be able to sustain if not for God's love. I wouldnt be sober enough. I'm helpless. Only God can work in her heart. Thank God for trials and pains. It's a gd challenge to translate my understanding of God's love into action for dis person.
I reali appreciate ppl who stood by me and bore with me. =)
blessed by Father; wHeE
Read the book of Joshua. God uses things to remind His people of what He has done for them. Thank God for reminding me of who He is through problems and difficulties. He is a faithful God, in times of difficulties, He gave strength and wisdom to bring me through trials. He provided listeners.
Pain has indeed help me grow in Him. in my understanding and dependence. It has brought me closer to Him. He is good and faithful. I've struggled thru my emotions to think soberly and to solve the problems before me with the strength He's given. I knew there was no way I could do it.
I am weak but Thou art strong. (I am weak but You are strong.)
Great Is Thy Faithfulness
Great is thy faithfulness, O God, My Father
There is no shadow of turning with Thee.
Thou changest not, Thy compassions they fail not;
As thou hast been, Thou forever wilt be.
Refrain
Great is thy faithfulness, Great is thy faithfulness;
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me.
Summer and winter, and springtime and harvest,
Sun, moon, and stars in their courses above
Join with all nature in manifold witness
To Thy great faithfulness, mercy, and love.
Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth,
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide;
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,
Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside!
Found a rather nice piano arrangement of this song here
blessed by Father; wHeE
Monday, February 20, 2006
I'm so... hurt. The pain is so immense. O God, please help..
Things turn out so unexpectedly.
I'm so hurt bcos of 2 ppl. Making choices basing on emotions. The 1st one's a guess. In any case, I'm hurt bcos 2 ppl chose to not tell me the truth either bcos of guilt or bcos of sm reason I don't know. I'm so so so in deep pain. I cant stop it, I cant stop thinking abt it and it's not going away.
Oh God, You are so good. The reason why I'm stil joyful is trusting that You have the best plans in mind. You are sovereign. You are in control. Thank You for pains. Thank You for helping me appreciate how much You love me. I must have hurt You and made You so angry when I sin. I'm so sorry.
1 Thes 5:18
16Be joyful always; 17pray continually; 18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
(context: exhorting us to love Christians - read chpt 5)
blessed by Father; wHeE
Sunday, February 19, 2006
I sorta regret changing a new line. I'd miss my M1 line. It's onli aft changing that I realise many ppl ard hold an M1 line. The thing is, the 2nd 500 free SMS is onli for singtel lines. brr.. And the big hassle is, must transfer all the numbers to the new phone. I have a few hundreds of contacts to be transfered la. This is madness. Ppl are msgg me at the new line faster than I store their contacts.
4days of break fr tml, betta start working on my 1500-word essay today.
This is one of da songs tt we sang in the church I went to juz now. Quite common.
Light of the world
You stepped out into darkness
Opened my eyes, let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore you
Hope of a life spent with You
CHORUS
Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely,
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me
King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came to the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sins upon that cross
blessed by Father; wHeE
My throat was so irritating ytd at service that I wished I'd chop it off. It's a matter of time that I cough my lungs out. Oops, that sounds gory.. uncle freddie was reali funnie (he'd no intention to). He wanted to ask us to sing the hymn 有福的确据(blessed evidence) but he said 有父的瘸据(lame evidence of the father). It was hilarious. I couldnt stop laughing abt it.
My cell grp ppl are reali funnie. Jia Yan was trying to find out who submitted the ECP form to her. Ji Bing replied in a very loud and high pitch manner. That was reali funnie. He's very cute. He's the A stdt in the grp. Don't see him always not listening, he knows his stuff very well.
We were supposed to be thanking God for the bad things that happened dis wk for the person on our right in my sml grp, Natalie was supposd to start. She laughed bcos she don't know how to thank God for bad things for Zi Min. The bad thing was Zi Min failed her lit test. So she thank God that He woke her up for lit. Haha..
Was quite amazed that Ren Jing and Ren Jie still cm and kar jiao me. These 2 ppl are the ones whom I've 'scolded' b4. But Ren Jing was reali sweet, everytime I go to the bus-stop, he'd give up his seat for me. I guess tt's the major diff b/w girls and guys, girls bear grudges, but guys don't?
Yay, it's nice to hv a camera fone. I took a photo of my bro and we talked more than we did. God heard my prayer (in 1 of the prev post).
Tdy, I went to a church in wdlds (WEFC) cos I gotta bring my stdt there. I tremendously enjoyed the whole service. It was reali refreshing. They keep singing songs thruout the whole service, for offering, response to sermon, preparing heart for sermon. The way they lead is reali gd. They started off with a slow song. The song ldr read the lyrics out and the link to the singing was.. Gd. The transition to the next song is a prayer. For sm songs, they sang once, pray, and sang again. There was dis part whn they finishd praying, the music stopped, then the nxt song came in. It was splendid! Wow, I'm truly amazed. There's one part where they project a few verses from Psalm, talking abt why we shld praise God, focusing the whole worship on God, and aft rdg, they sang the nxt song. Agn, the link was reali gd! The verses which she chose to repeat are done so tactfully that she reali helped us, or at least me, to focus on the lyrics. It's reali wonderful.
The sermon was reali gd. The pastor was spkg on the book of John 1. The psg was on Jesus coming to be baptised by John the Baptist. The title of the sermon was 'playing the second fiddle'. He explained very clearly what it meant to play the second fiddle and how John did that. With each pt he made and explained from teh verse, he gave a very clear application for us to think abt and to put it into practicce. He's teaching is reali sound. To think, I was quite unwilling to come for this service a while ago. I'm trying to find excuses to come for this service nxt sun by bringing my stdt there. He's gg to talk abt Nicodemus. Haha..
Had cell grp mtg, at bp plaza yoshi followed by church camp mtg. Well done, all mtgs cleared.
Am very happie bcos of sth. my fren msgd me saying 'I hv sth to tell ya on mon, I think God is messing up my life.' So I askd her if God messing up her life is gd or bad. She replied saying 'it's gd, but I don't know how to rxt to it.' I'm reali excited to hear fr her. I'm prepared to be used by God for whtever He's bringing me to. It's clearly the Lord's work in this person's heart.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Friday, February 17, 2006
My respiratory tract is so weakened by some virus that left it more susceptible for other virus to come and attack. Well done. Then gene exchange will occur between the viruses and mutation occurs. And the next person who gets it will.. Hmm.. Do I sound pro? Alright, the bottomline is I have SORE THROAT again. Again, again, again.. Get the idea? (Oh dear, I just complained) But, thank God in the sense that this is a signal for me to reali reali reali rest. The lecturer said the best way to recover from a virus attack is sleep for abt 12hrs a day. Then your body will devote its energy to fight the viruses. (I thot that's quite common sense tho, but often, ppl like me like to put my body to the challenge)
This wk was reali madness,as I recount what happened, organic chem test was the most 'shiong' ting. I studied it at the expense of sleep, calling my stdts, and my lab report. In the end, I gotta scramble today to finish it up. Have 16 tangents to draw and 16 gradients to be calculated. I don't know what kind of report I came up with. I don't wana read it. Thank God for the strength for seeing me through.
Was with my fren in sch ytd, tryin to finish an organic chem worksheet that both us signed up for (it's kind of like an extra thing). Ytd was crazy. Reali crazy. First, my gd fren in chem and I laughed reali realli hard aft dis guy, who was pushing the trolley, knocked his trolley into the bench (our lao di fang) which we were at. And we started being reali cranky. We laughed at every single thing. Literally. She said pink is bimbotic. Hrmph.. Fine, I'm a bimbo. Then I told my oth fren (whom i stayed with her to study and to finish the org worksheet), and we started joking abt being bimbotic. We linked everyth to being bimbotic. She told me abt the legally blonde funnie stuff and it made me so want to watch legally blonde. bimbotic and geok lan doesnt go together, do they? Bimbotic according to dis fwen, refers to saying things that are dumb, (and being vain.)
So today, I was msgg her telling her I was very excited I managed to finish my lab report. She replied saying 'I know that sense of achievement aft finishing a lab report. So I can imagine how you said it (I said 'I'm happie!)! Of course, in a bimbotic way!' Ha..
Hv a 1500 essay to write for my history. 4 days of term break (ends on fri unlike NTU which has 1 week break) Yay, looking forward to the mugging on tues followed by the waffle deal! Hrmphs.. yay...
I got a new phone (and a new line) without having to pay (on the spot). Everyth (the SIM card, teh reg fees) are charged in my bill. So I went away scotfree. I mean.. ha.. It's a samsung fone x660. The memory is quite small.. but, who cares, a fone is used to make calls and send smses. So.. Ya..
I went up to the salesman 'you need your parents to buy a phone.' I told him I was gg to turn 20 dis yr, I think he got a shock that he was responding in a manner to hide his embarrassment. Initially I saw it as him being rude because he wasnt even apologetic but went on to regard me in his words like a kid. But.. I think he reali got a shock. That shld teach him not to assume ppl's age.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Another late night tonight. I had a talk with Hsiao Ling over dinner after my mtg. She shared alot of insights about communicating. Why communicate? Because we want to know and be known, understand and be understood. Our relationships are made up of communication. And she's pushing it. Or rather challenging me to put down my pride to communicate with someone. To look at things in a different perspective when I communicate with him, to seek to understand him and be understood, to raise his awareness towards certain things (which are not pleasing to God). She helped me see frm the way I respond when I'm hurt, to understand him in the way he responds when he's hurt. If I knew he's hurt, would I stil be so mean? I ask that God give me the sensitivity and love for this person. To deal with this person with gentleness and humility. To take the initiative to be concern.
It's so hard to understand guys. They are of a different species. But I'd have to learn to appreciate him and thank God for placing him in my life. He's constantly challenging me. Thank God for differences. I pray and ask for breakthrough in this r'ship.
I'm prideful. I do not entrust things for people to do because I'm afraid they cant do a good job as I do. Stil as prideful - pride has shifted its place to another form. As I've been telling the cell grp gals, dependence in God means to recognise we are powerless and God is powerful. It's time I put my words into action.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Taking a break fr my revision for tml's organic test. 1 more mtg will be cleared today. Am supposed to look for emcees for the event which i'm planning. Need reali gd emcees. May God provide. May God give me the courage to ask.
I realised I have a wacky history lecturer who gives the wrong facts. He was talking abt the elitist thing abt a uni grad woman having the privilege to have incentives for child born. but my friend said that it wasnt so. It was more for a uni grad woman marrying a uni grad man to produce a smart child to get the incentive. But what he said was no where close to it. And he said Parameswara saw the lion in Singapore and so name Singapore Singapura. I thot it's Sang Nila Utama. (Or is SNU a legend) The oth day he oso said or expressed in such a manner that Martin Luther wanted to break away from the Catholic church. I was so sure Martin Luther didnt. (The funny thing was the next wk, another lecturer was saying Martin Luther had no intention of breaking away from the church. He wanted to REFORM the church) Haha..
Mum made tea for me (finally aft a zillion yrs) aft I requested for it. I stil prefer lipton tea. hmm. Y'day I was looking for tea and saw the billy tea I bought fr Australia for her. She didnt even touch it at all and it's gg to expire in August. I was telling her to drink it soon. She said 'tea shld be fine'. Fine.. Since tea stimes has a laxative effect on me anyw. She's stubborn.
Was reading my history text. Can betta appreciate why my mum was and is so anti-christian. Look at what the British did during the Indian mutiny.
British to India: You have to pay for my 2hundred soldiers who were killed by your ppl.
India: what abt the thousands of Indian who died because your soldiers set on fire in the village?
British: Too bad. We are superior. We have our maxim guns.
Background: The British used military force on them for the Christian missionaries to go in.
Alright, that was in the past. That's probably how we have our mission schools and Christianity spread to S'pore.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Am so tired. Slept just half an hr before my parents woke up at 5.30. Intended to slp til 8.30 but they kept disturbing me, thinking I gotta go to sch early. So on and off and 7 plus they woke me up twice. Nvtheless, thank God for the 3hrs of slp.
Thank God for seeing me through the day. I understood every lecture. (Quite rare esp for physical chem - it helped to stay up so late to do the exercises for that lect)
Met my date just now for dinner and to pray. Thank God for the good time of sharing and catching up. =) Thank God for a support spiritually.
Alright, my date's sheila.. hahah.. Just thot it'd be funnie..
blessed by Father; wHeE
Suddenly reminded of this song
V1
Beautiful Lord, wonderful Saviour
I know for sure all of my days are held in Your hand.
Crafted into Your perfect plan.
Bridge
I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart, I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord, I pray.
Chorus
Take me, mold me, use me, fill me,
I give my life to the Pot - ter's hand.
Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life, to the Pot - ter's hand.
V2
You gently call me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit, teach me dear Lord.
To live all of my life through your eyes.
I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart, I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord, I pray.
Take me, mold me, use me, fill me,
I give my life to the Pot - ter's hand.
Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life, to the Pot - ter's hand.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Sweet acts of love: Dis morning, I was trying to open the chicken essence (they changed it to those caps whereby you'd have to turn it to open) and it was reali hot. So I went 'ouch!'. Both my mum and my dad, at the same time, said 'xiao xin ah'. They were concern. I was happie. =) I guess I could understand dis concern bcos it's a similar kind to my stdt. Thank God for allowing me to sensitive to this.
My friend and I were lost in our organic chem mass tutorial. She couldnt see dis chiral compound. (Meso compound) whereby if you do a mirror image of it, the compounds are actually teh same. So I suggested that we go look for the teaching assistant (TA) for the model to see. He's reali nice. He kindly lend it to us and even helped us. I broke one of the structure when I was trying to do a chair conformation of cyclohexane. I told him, and he smiled and said 'oh, it's alright!' So I joked and said, 'then I break some more?' Then, he said a set actually cost $114. That's expensive. But my comfort is, I saw many broken ones. Not that I'm not guilty of breaking one.
I missed my mtg with Sheila today. Sobs. I canceled it to study for my microbes test. She was understanding and sent me a verse to encourage me and reminded me to depend on the Lord. I am reali thankful to the Lord for such an understanding friend. I truly wanted to mt her to pass her the friendship day card I made for her. +) (Dis smiley face reminds me of the benzene ring-our fave cpd, where there's a delocalization of the postive charge hee)
Thank God reali for seeing me thru the whole process of studying and taking the test. I took 2hrs to memorise everyth (cell structures, basic units of organic molecules in the body, classification of microorganism, bacteria, fungi, algae, examples of beneficial bacteria etc) Thank God that I could do most of the questions. The mcqs are quite interesting. It's not reali mcq. It's a question, with 5 statements and you have to shade true or false for each statement. For evry correct ans,pts are awarded, but for evry wrong ans, pts are deducted. No pts deduted for evry unansrd qn.
My friend injured her knee. It looks reali bad. May the Lord heal her and grant her a speedy recovery.
One mtg (with Jia Yan) down. 5 more to go. Thank God for using me to be a listener to her.
I owe Alvin a meal for his bday. May God help him in his organic test on wednesday!
Thank God for blessings.
Hmm.. Your statements are so vague I dont know what you are trying to say. It doesnt help if you see a problem in me or us but don't want to say. You're not being responsible because we are accountable for each other. I feel exasperated whenever you try to do that. Arent we friends? Shouldnt we be communicating? I don't like the idea that on one side you appear alright but deep inside you're not.
But... I trust that you may have your difficulties in saying? I don't know. I pray that you have the courage and tact to say it. =)
blessed by Father; wHeE
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Just finishd my dinner. Yum yum.. Thank God my appetite's back again! Think I had gastric for the past 2 nights. I ate at reali weird times and have onli 1 meal a day. So.. I guess I gotta take more responsibility in taking care of mi body.
Went to River Ang Pow just now with my mum. Walking pass Clarke Quay and Fullerton Hotel brings back memories of Pem. How we used to go there and hang out even tho there's nth much to do. How Ting said she'd jump down the bridge if she did very badly for her O's... It also reminded me of the time when I was reali young, my bro and I'd go down with my mum. Now that we've grown up, we hv more tings to do and more interested to doin tings tt we like than go down and take photos of those reali funnie statues and stuff like tt.
It was time of learning to be patient and submission to my mum. I didnt reali wana take photos with those kuku statues. But I obeyed. The ratio of photos with my mum: tt with me inside's 10:1. I used my self-taking skills to take a photo of me and my mummie. When the photos are out, I'd consd uploading. But not those with the statues. It's kukufying.. Haha.. Oh, I missed the Fullerton hotel so much tt I persuaded my mum to take photos of it and the tree (with the low branch). Before I go off (was heading to Ying's plc), my mum passed me an orange. I thot tt was reali sweet. When I was young, she'd peel the oranges for my bro and I to eat to quench our thirst. Ya.. Guess I shld take more time out for her.
Just realised I havent add 2 more mtgs. Church camp mtg and cell grp mtg. 6mtgs dis wk. Tt's reali tough. Church and ministry mtgs all on the same wk. God see me thru.
Came back fr Ying's plc. We made valentine's day cards for our friends! I'm so proud of what I've done. Was online y'day, chatting with my old time fren in JC (we were always challenging each oth in our studies). He said he's gg to make potato salad for his gf!!! Tt's so sweet. They're gg to have a picnic at night. So he was looking thru the recipes and stuff y'day. Trying out today!! Ouch.. Potato salad!! I miss it so muuuuccccchhhhhhhhh.. Couldnt find it in cheers. I'm gg marry anyone who makes me potato salad! Ehh... kidding..
blessed by Father; wHeE
Am gg to chun dao he pan today with my mum despite the fact that I have to study for my test tml. Have ta keep my promise with her. Plus, she v poor thing if she goes dere alone. How to take photos?
Dis wk's gonna be reali busy.. 3 meetings await me. F.U.M party, team meeting, meeting with Jia Yan. Oh ya, and there's prayer mtg. Haiz, pray for tenacity to last dis wk. Another test on thurs - organic chem. Argh.. My mind's exploding..
Realise I have alot of ppl in my life to be concern abt
Church
1) Ai Ming
2) Wei Yan
3) Yee Wah
4) Natalie
5) Zi Min
6) Wei Xin
7) Zi Xin (coming to be due to BCL)
My students
1) Si Ying
2) Amanda
3) Caryn
4) Gabrielle
Still have some more ppl on the list I cant rmb.
I think I'm neglecting the existence of Pem. God please help me be faithful and grant me the strength. Hmms. It takes time (to think for them and to call them), energy and love. May God give me all these. =)
blessed by Father; wHeE
another creative idea fr my friend.
Msg: Your ruler missing is it? I think it got lost and wandered into my pencil case.
Went for Kenneth and Huiwen's (Janelle - stil cant get used to calling her tt) wedding. A bit disappointing aft I went for the previous one. Everyth's not as gd as tt. The food, the prog, the projection etc. But it's not reali nice to be complaining abt dis in my heart cos it's dere wedding, dey shld be enjoying tt ceremony.
Was on the train just now and reading my bible. I looked up and saw 3 guys (fr diff plcs) looking at me. Tt's irritating. They must be blind. I used my staring stance. All failed. They continued looking when I glared at them. Fine, what can I do, continue reading my BIBLE.
Just now, was on lrt aft church. Dis lady was realy IRRITATING. She dropped a piece of paper pretending that it fell from somewhere. I glared at her. I cant do much considering her size. Alright, I didnt dare to put my life at stake. So much for doing what is right in teh eyes of the Lord. I was reali mad at her. She was sitting beside me in the lrt. Guess what she did, she put her bags of stuff on the seat, which occupied half of the seat. And she shifted to my territory. (She invaded half of it) I was reali mad - how can there be such unreasonable person on earth?! I did sth reali evil, I pretended to sneeze. (I've been practicing it on my stdts) It worked for a while. So I progressed on to coughing and she retreated.
Now I realised, that was a trial from the Lord. How have I responded? I got my way, but did I glorify Him? I merely showed I have a god who's petty and wants the best for himself. God help me, to be reali gracious even at the expense of my interest.
I think stimes I'm quite inconsistent. I have low tolerance for dis kind of petty stuff. The oth day I was at popular, a boy dropped a pen and continued his fighting with his bro. I told him sternly to pick up the pen and put it back. He looked reali scared. If Christ were to come back anytime, I'm sure I'd have tt kind of look. When will I ever stop sinning? Oh rats, dis is a complain as well and a reflection of discontentment. As what Pastor said, we will onli be perfect when Christ comes back. But now, every moment of our lives, we are being moulded.
It was quite disappointing when I quized the girls.
Statement 1: I am a Christian since I was born.
Reply: False
Their explanation: Because the person must accept Christ + if everyone is a Christian since they are born, there'd be no other non believers
Challenge: But there are ppl who are born in a non believer's family.
Response: (Stuck)
Question: If you were to die today, and God asks you "Why should I let you come to my heaven?" What would you say?
Choices:
1) I accepted Jesus Christ
2) I go to church
3) I read the Bible and prayed
Reply: 1)
Ans: All 3 choices are wrong - We have no part in the process of salvation. The basis of going to heaven is via Christ who died for us.
Statement 2: God is so merciful that He will save everyone on earth.
Reply: False
Their explanation: Not everyone is a believer. (They still have to make a response to God) (No link tho.. But..)
Challenge: God is the One who grants us the understanding to even accept Him. So if there are some people who doesnt believe in Him, meaning god is not merciful?
Response: (Stuck)
So much for being a Christian who claims to KNOW God. Have we reali considered what it reali means to be a Christian? Does going to church reali make us one? Does verbally claiming 'I know God' suggest that I am one? What is it when we praise God and curse ppl with vulgarities with the same mouth? What is it when we say we love God but we make no effort to want to know Him? So much for being a Christian.
The clementi mosque have dis banner which says 'Islam is a way of life'. I was thinking in my heart, so is Christianity. But.. How many times are we a sunday/saturday Christian?
Natalie was reali thinking. "then why did God even create us when He knows that we'd sin? Why did God CAUSE us to sin? Meanin God is bad. Oh no, God is sometimes good and sometimes bad. How come God cannot create us to not sin?" Her assignment's to ponder over it over the wk.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Saturday, February 11, 2006
I think I'm easily tempted by food. I think ppl are sweet when they offer me food. Ha.. My mum made chicken essence for me dis morning. Oh, I think she does that everytime I go home late and look reali reali lethargic. I thot tt's reali nice. She made feel even worse for snapping at her the day before. =( I shldnt have done that in the first plc.
I studied in sch with a friend (Serene) ytd. I saw her in the library when I was zapping some chem questions for mon's mass tutorial in lecture. So we had dinner together did our stuff. I quite like the plc we studied at. Mayb I shld ask my fren to change a lao di fang. Had an interesting talk with her. I think she's reali similar to me in the sense that we are both quite lost in sci. Honestly, I find myself wondering many times why I'm majorin Chem. Maths in uni is reali reali different as tt in JC. I guess I had a horrendous experience aft the misleading module 'basics of mathematics'. Similar in teh sense that we like to laugh, make ppl laugh and even the same aspiration last time. I shant disclose what tt aspiration is. Haha..
Oh ya, she told me a reali farnie joke!
There's dis magic slide, that you climb up, make a wish, and when you reach teh bottom of teh slide, you'd be in the middle of what you wish. So the first person, a man, when down the slide, wishing for money and he landed in a pool of money. The second person, wished for gold, and he landed with a loud 'thud' (because gold was hard ya).
The third person was a boy who didnt know it was a magic slide. So he went up, sit down teh slide, and went 'weeeeeee..' hahahaha.. It's so funny it's so funny it's so funny!!
I had physical chem lab today. I went dere happily only to find the lab instructor 'dropping a bomb' (which my fren described) He said many things abt the previous lab reports that we did. Apparently, most of us got a shock. Because for one of the graphs, it was supposed to be a gentle curve and not a straight line. And to make things worse, he said the kinetics of a compound is not reali determined by teh concentration of teh reactant but some activity thing. Oh well.. I told my fren (her lab session is on a diff slot) and was even more disturbed that she spent time dwellin on it. 'Why is it a curve?' I didnt even bother because I couldnt do anyth abt the lab rept, bcos once its marked its marked. The concept wld most likely not affect our final test unlike A levels. So..
I thot I did a few things that are displeasing to the Lord. I dislike dis lab instructor (same for last sem and he's my tutor as well in last sem) So when he went to dis girl, 'why you try to hard for your lab rpt? my belief is best do lesss get more. Write 2 pages get at B+ is very good.' So I turned to my newly made friend and said 'hao lian'. And the badder part was I was glad she laughed at my comment. =S It's not very nice to badmouth my tutors. Shld show more respect. Cant rmb what's the oth thing, wil come back.
Was in office cos my stdt was held back in sch. She couldnt contact me. So I head to office. Was talking to dis girl with Jia Yan for a while. She's 9 dis yr. I was smacking Jia Yan and she scolded me for being violent. So she made a comment to e girl saying I was very ungentle. I asked her 'I very violent meh?' (In a pressurizing tone for her to say no)She was pondering whether she shld say yes. I was hoping she'd say yes because I didnt want her to lie. When she said yes, I praised her for saying the truth. At tt pt in time I was reminded of things when I was young. The older ppl ask questions to suan each oth. But to me as a kid, how I ans the question mattered to me bcos it'd meant I have to tell a lie to make you happie. I guess that's when we are usually encouraged to tell lies. Our moral stds were set by our emotions. If I tell a lie, you are happie, you like me, it's alright to say things like that. I guess many times we are not careful and can stumble the younger ones to sin. From the questions Jia Yan asked, I saw that the kid wasnt able to make a certain decision on whether she like a certain thing or not. So I guess in the end she just anyhow makes a decision and tries to just justify the decision she made.
JY: (Weiwu, a co-worker who's serving while waiting for his A's went in and asked JY if dey wana go over to the oth rm to play maple) Go away (in a kidding manner after deciding to continue playing carom), dis game is more fun. (Turning to the girl) Dis more fun hor, gor gor not nice right, dun like him. YOu like dis gor gor (with a certain pressure to make her say no unintentionally)
Girl: (Shakes head)
JY: (sudden change in tone) Huh?! why you dun like dis gor gor? He nt very gd to you is it?
Girl: Huh.. Ok la.. Just dun like him. (aft JY probed and suggested if she doesnt like guys. I doubt her response when she said she doesnt like guys)
I was reali disturbed. Kids are reali observant. They reali want to please you (or mayb she likes me not JY haha). So they are compelled to make a response that's pleasing to your ears. Hmms..
Was on the phone talking to Christine. How time flies, the first time I met her, she was stil in P6, and now she just collected her O levels' results, deciding which JC to go to. Oh we were talking abt brownies. Reminded me of breeks brownies with the very yummy chocolate sauce. I missed it!! Had it like a few yrs ago during our last team mtg in ministry. Alvin wld know.. Sobs.. Brownies brownies brownies..
Gg for Kenneth's wedding tml. Was talking with Christine abt wearing formal wear and she said I'd not go for the nxt one. So I challenged her 'what if the nxt one is Hsiao LIng's?' haha.. Then she shoot, 'den when's yr turn' haha.. Mayb shld do 5yr plan like Elphia. hha..
I'm ageing.
Thank God for problems and sensitivity to sin.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Have so many 'lao di fangs' in school today. Evry thursday, I'd be meeting my breakfast companion at our lao di fang in canteen for breakfast. And for almost everyday, I'd go to my favourite plc, which my fren and I call it lao di fang as well to study. It's the benches outside the organic lab. Both of them do not know each oth. So.. I got a shock when both of them on teh same day mentioned the word lao di fang but both refer to different places.
Yeah, so I met my fren (the one who said I have butter fingers and wld buy tings for me) at our lao di fang to do our stuff. I think we were very cranky today. We couldnt stop joking n laughin abt dum tings la. We had 4 hrs break. but I have a 1hr history tutorial during that 4 hrs break. We decided to do sth crazy. I told her there's dis reali 'shuai' guy in my history cls. (I'm not boy crazy if you are wondering, juz for some conversation purpose but he's quite gd looking) He's fr the states, on foreign exchange, his 2nd semester in NUS. He's a yr 3 chem major. That's what sparked off teh conversation between the both of us the oth day. So, my fren sent me to take photos of him. I goped her phone (mine doesnt have camera function) for 1hr. But didnt succeed. He came in to tut late and left before I had a chance to talk more with him. Btw, he was wearing a 'rooney' shirt. So I thot he liked man utd. I made a remark asking him if he liked man u. He said 'Oh, I like this shirt when I saw it in Thailand so I bought this'. Oh well, I shld hv known. Why wld a states person watch english football. Hmms.. Anyways, it wasnt a man u jersey, it was the england soccer team jersey. Oh well, mission failed. Nxt wk perhaps. Haha..
So I went back, and because it was raining, the bench wld likely get lil bit of teh rain, she wasnt there. So i loitered ard there and saw Xiu Ping and asked her if she saw my fren. (My fren sillily went to befren Xiu Ping during her chem tutorial. They were nv in teh same tutorial but there tutorial slots were quite near to each other.) So, xiu ping and I are trying to reach out to her.
Anyways, xp didnt see her. So we sat outside the lab and talk. And she appeared. Yeah, they exchanged numbers. Xiu ping'll be working on asking her to her church. Hee. She stays in teh east and xp's church is at aljunied so.. Ya.. I got more fr her today while we were fooling ard. She was saying sth which wasnt very alright, so I made a comment saying 'don't say that, my Lord is not pleased' Guess how she replied. 'How you know it's onli your Lord?' Oooo.. I was quite harppieee when I heard that. I shldnt have ignored that statement. (It meant she probably acknowledged God as well) She was fr a church kindergarten. So I asked her what song she learnt. ya, those kids song like 'thank you for the world so sweet', 'my God is so good'. Hee.. got progress. Thank God. May God continue to work in her heart and use both xp and I to witness to her. Yay!! Progress is good..
Thank God thank God thank God!!!
blessed by Father; wHeE
When my friend emailed me past yr lab reports,
'Butter fingers, Nah..."
"When you want to hydrogenate your fingers, tell me. How can I miss out such fun?"
I'm very amazed by her creativity to 'suan' ppl. Must learn. Btw, it's a SCIENCE joke. Organic chem joke rather. I mentioned abt the spilling of my crystals to her. She betta watch out. Haha..
Dreads, doing organic chem lab report now.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
I think my fren has a gift of giving. She's sooooo sweet. MOn aft lecture she met me and said she bought something for me. It was a heart-shaped cookie with pink sugar (I duno how they made it) she bought from spinelli's. She said it was very me. So she bought it. I felt like strangling her. What's the link??!! I'm not very pinkish what. But it's reali sweet. she was the one who bought me strepsils when I had sore throat. That's reali nice. Thank God for such a friend! I like sweet ppl.. haha..
My dad was reali sweet too. When I went back, he heard me clearing my throat so he thot I was unwell. He asked me to make 'liang cha' for myself. But I didnt. (I downed 3 cups of coffee that day) But y'day, when I went back, he made dinner. And made 'liang cha' for me. I feel so loved. (Actually, I thot he was in a bad mood on mon morning. Cos he was muttering sth which I thot was against me. Was rather sad so I took the initiative to talk to him la. Guess it helps. I guess fathers like ppl to be submissive.)
Thank God for seeing me thru y'day. I wasn't gg to last the entire day. Was very restless during history lecture. When I saw the lecture outline, I thot the lecturer's was crazy. He wanted to go thru all the revolutions (Reformation, Scientific, French, Enlightenment, Industrial) and expand the industrial revolution in 1.5hrs? Thank God I researchd on the Reformation and the Enlightenment before for our area mtgs. Anyways, I thot my txtbk was reali lousy. Gg to gope SY's txt. haha.. Hear that?!! You betta be kind. haha..
Yea, I saw this guy fr my soci tutorial (had soci tut at 8am y'day) when I was on my way home y'day. Managed to chat with him. He's majoring in psychology, taking soci and calculus modules. Let's see what I rmb. Was fr HC in harmonica band. he insisted he was a slacker.Finee.. He said he had been failing his chemistry til A levels (he got a 'B'!! can you believe it. Alright, I got A for Econs aft many 'O's.. By God's grace, reali) Btw, he said I dun look like a chinese. HOnestly I felt insulted - not in a very extreme degree.(that was the topic we were talking abt that morning for soci tut - race and ethnicity - how it affects social interactions) He said I look like a malay. Oh he's worse, he looks like a Eurasian. There were ppl who said he looked like an Indian. wahaha.. Indian is reali funny.. Perhaps North Indian. He's quite fair. (He's a chinese btw) Oh ya, I thot he was some nerd til he said he used to play soccer. He said he used to support any team who beats Man U but now is any team who beats Chelsea. He said he quite like Arsenal. Woo hoo, found a fellow fan of Arsenal. Maybe not fan la..
That reminds me of my soci lecturer. (That was straight aft my tut at 10am) He's reali funny. That day's topic was on family. He was defining family and was taling abt legal recognition for social purposes. Like getting married so that the government takes note of this union and this aids in purchasing house. Then he said, 'if your bf asks you to buy a hse, it'd mean he's proposing to you. Fr now is exactly 7 days'. My fren and I were like 'huh?' 7days? Oh well, it's valentine's day. haha. He's reali nice, he takes note of such things to joke abt it. Whenever he asks questions he goes 'am I right or am I right?' He's clear, but I'm stil gg to drown in sociology. God, help me..
Was doing my QT just now and I made an amazing discovery. In studying the old testament, we always try to look out for allusions to Christ. So i was reading Deuteronomy and Moses was recounting to the new generation of the Israelites abt the process the previous generation went thru. That part which he said he was on the mountain for forty days and forty nights (to get the commandments) without manna and drink reminds me of the part in Matthew, when Jesus fasted in the desert for forty days and forty nights. I thot that was reali interesting. I saw 2 more. It's interesting that characters like David, Moses, Abraham (who may be close 'likeness' to Christ) despite being faithful to God, will at one time be disobedient. Someone was sayin that's because they are mere humans. They may represent Christ, but God still wans us to see that Christ is the only one who can die on the cross for our sins. While the OT characters are merely pointing to the salvation that Christ brings. That's interesting.
Thank God for granting me disicpline and love for His word. I'm way ahead of my target. Was supposed to read 1 chapter a day and I'd finish 1Kings in June. Apparently, at the rate I'm gg, I shld be able to finish Deuteronomy by next wk (just started) and finish a few books in Feb. I may be able to read the bible once thru dis yr. yay!..
blessed by Father; wHeE
Monday, February 06, 2006
Am in school now. Gg to stay back in sch to do ministry stuff (planning stdt's lesson plans) and readings (for my sociology tutorial).
Dis morning, went to sch and saw xiu ping on the way. We usually meet up early in sch to do QT together on mondays and thursdays (before our chem lect at 8am). Sounds familiar - did I say that before? Thank God for the time spent with her. She's helping print my chem notes. Ha.. So thankful that she's sharing my problems.
met Sheila to catch up and get prayer requests. Thank God for the wonderful time spent with her. Thank God we are different. She is usually able to tell me things in a more rational manner and give things in another light. Thank God for differences reali..
Then rush back to sci fac for organic chem tutorial. I was quite shocked that most of the ppl didnt do (or maybe didnt know) how to do the resonance question. We were given a structure and asked to draw all the possible resonance structure (reminds me of yday, when I told SY i duno how to draw the structure, she said 'ask me ask me' so I pass her my paper. She drew a smiley face and suggested that the angle of the line on teh tongue must be accurate. 45 degrees. Very very funny.. Wahaha) It was quite comforting to know that other ppl didnt know as well. Hee.
Saw Serene (a friend's friend who's in the same microbiology lecture as I) when I left the tutorial. It was very wonderful to see her bright and cheerful greeting. It makes my day. Hee. I rmbed last wk when I was in the lecture, she passed me the turkish delight. Hee. Turkish delight is quite addictive (tho I dun reali like the sweetness, but aft finishing it, you'd wan to have another one)
Okie dokes, gotta do my stuff le. Othwise, I'll slp late again. Dread doing organic chem lab report. I was supposed to count the yield of the product I synthesised. But I spilled some before weighing cos I thot we dont have to count the yield. And the weight cannot be too high (too high means the compound is not completely dried) So ya.. Am facing dilemma here, cheat and change the weight or just leave it and explain my way out in the lab rpt.
Haiz, dont take the easy way out geok lan.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Sunday, February 05, 2006
juz came back fr my sem 1 english tcher's plc. We had a farewell cum new yr meeting. One of our clsmates gg Australia to take vet studies. We had a good time. Thank God for my experience in yfc. Introduced a lot of games. (Thank God reali, my cls rep and i - i'm the vice cls rep, were reali scared they'd go gambling. The person who's leaving brought a mahjong set.) We played polar bear. Woo hoo. It's the best game to keep ppl gg. tink we played a few rounds for hours. Was quite fun watching them (I was the game person) Reali had a great time of interaction.
Y'day (sat) went for Romans Trail. Brought my 2 stdts down. Had a gd time learning God's word with them. They are so cuteee and adorable. But I think I'm reali growing up. For example, i was trying to get my sec 1 girl to ans my question during bs. She came up with some crappy stuff. Wanted tings to be done quickly. (She was supposed to be shy, but mayb she's opening up to me. gd and bad) Guess I gotta leave some crapping time during BS when I meet her. She's reali cute. The first time I met her for bs last fri, she gave me a glass of candle wax. She wrapped a zillion of layers of rough papers and made me open it up before her.
Aft tt, went home to take a power nap. Supposed to wake up at 4.30 to prepare to go to church for cell grp mtg at 5.30 but I overslept and woke up at 5 instead. Was reali tired. I thot I was gg to fall sick or sth bcos I was feeeling nrgyless. Had no strength to move out of bed la..
Yea and Huey gave me (and probably Jia Yan) a big shock. They didnt tell us they werent gg to church y'day. So aft service, Jia Yan and I gotta take the grp. They were reali naughty. Or cheeky rather. I felt reali saved when Hsiao Ling, Mingde, Su Ying and Amy came to the rescue. You literally need dis no of ppl to control the grp.
I took lyly, Zi Min, Wei Xin and Yi Wei. Thank God for the time of consolidating and sharing. REali, I was praying reali hard for an opportunity to talk abt teh friendster issue. So in the end, I was reali encouraged when they sounded determined to close down their friendster account (they were underaged). Must reali pray for them, bcos it's reali not easy. Takes much love for God. We also agreed to pray for each other throughout the wk and to share to 1 friend abt Jesus Christ thruout the wk. Reali hope they wont forget to do so.
Am reali encouraged by lyly. She takes sermon notes and reali rmbs them. She's also very spontaneous to share when I askd questions. Thank God for the gals I'm taking. (I'd struggle very much if I dun hv a responsive crowd. - mayb God shld put me to struggle) Thank God for guidin me through in taking them. I wasnt prepared at all to consolidate things.
Monday blues.. But quite excited to go sch tho. For organic chem lecture, tut and microbes lecture. Yeah, and also to meet Sheila to pray for each other.
I reali wonder, who comes to read all these.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Friday, February 03, 2006
Had lab today. The organic lab's reali cool. Thank God for good lab instructors. My lab instructor was Dr Kubal (a female). She's reali nice and helpful. I like to tok to lab instructors, can reali learn alot fr them. For teh first time doing an experiment on crystallization, I got reali reali nice crystals! But I was too impatient for the last step when we were supposed to dry the crystals, I was in a hurry to go for lect, so I went back aft my lect to dry. But met some familiar ppl (fr JJ - Janice and her frens, her clsmates actually Jia Ling and Jia Yan) and I talk to them. A bit pressurized cos dey were leaving. So I wanted to quickly finish up my work. I 'spilled' some crystals (wt must be low) til in teh end I got so little. (compared to the rest) =( Talk abt doin tings for the Lord..
Had physical chem lect, as usual, it reali takes patience to understand the lecturer. He's not bad, very clear in his xplanation, it's me. Everyone seems to be talkg so tt's the distraction.. =( Need xtra effort to watch the webcast to catch up with tings.
Sth saddening happend just now. I think it's a bit sillie to say why I'm sad. my fren walked away without saying bye.. =( Aft her lab, (I was outside) she and her another fren came out. She asked me sm qns abt the lab excitedly. Then while she was talkg to her fren, I wrote sth (was revising for organic chem). Then she just walked away. I was .. blank
I'm sad bcos she was reali nice person. Reali sweet. It was out of my xpectations tt she'd just go away without informing properly.
I think I have been taking friendship for granted. I never took the initiative to keep a friendship (Su Ying has been doin the job all these yrs haha) , even for oth friendships, the rest of my frens are the ones who take the initiative to meet up and everyth. So.. I think it's time I play my part to be a gd fren and to maintain dis friendship.
It takes courage, effort and love from God. Commit dis friendship in God's hands. To do everyth for Him. Thank God for giving my wonderful friends.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Am very very very tired. This is the simplest thing to do now. Ytd did many things. Had a gd tok overnight with Sam and Ying. They made me so proud of them. I'm glad to hv friends who are so sensible. They think more than I do and their thoughts are much more deeper than mine. So slept at 6am and woke up at 11am while the rest slept til 12plus.
Then I went to do contact work and went to sch to study and did many oth things. ytd was reali amazing. I slept at 2am. I was so disciplined that I didnt even stop to watch the TV. I was so disciplined that I made sure I kept to the time I set for my power nap.
Dis morning woke up at 6am. The freshness didnt last long. I went to sch early to do QT and went for lecture at 8am. During the 2nd half of the lecture I culd feel my head spinning. Then I met a yfc fren for breakfast. (I watch her eat tho). She said I look reali pale (glad in a sense cos I seldom look fair ha)
Then I went to my usual plc to do my stuff. (Read lab manual for tml's lab. Quite scary. i reali hate crystalization. Dear Lord, pls help me. I'm reali bad at that. The last sem, my crystals were the worst I guess. But the best part was I couldnt figure out what went wrong bcos everyth went on very smoothly while I was doin my expt. The cooling and heatin and everyth) Did planning for stdt's mtg, reviewed taday's lect, went to com lab to finish up and print my lab report. Researched the word on faith - just in case my stdt asks. Everyth in 4 hrs. amazing.
During my lect at 2pm, I was reali gg to die. My eyes were so tired, it is still like that now. My fren saw me and she couldnt stop asking me 'are you okay?' But I got a Turkish Delight from her. ha.. Despite my 'seairness'(cannot make it brain), I survived half the lecture. Fell aslp w/o knowing in between. The tutorial (a mass one) helped cover up what I missed out when I fell aslp. Thank God so much.
Then I took bus 963 to woodlands to mt my stdt. Slept all the way. But think I didnt slp well. My mind was still in a hyperactive mode (even tho its so tired.). There was stil 45min b4 she reaches, so I settled dwn and studied chem. The first time I'm enjoying chem in uni. I was happie. As happie as a toad. Then I met her. (She tried to digress when I questioned her accountability. Sounds bad but she's reali cute. I think I have a soft spot for her)
Everyth ended at 7.30 aft I went to breadtalk with her to get her dinner. (dont tink i dont eat breadtalk stuff k, i eat the chocolate croissant (pronounced at kwaaa - s on - 'r' is silent) )Then I took bus 187 back home. The longest bus ride I can get. I reached hm at abt 9. I shld hv slept for 1 1/2 hr. But it didnt help, my mind was stil in a hyperactive mode.
Reached home, I stoned for a lil while, began to call ppl. A few sad tings. 2ppl cant make it for a Christian mtg that I'm involved in teh plannin for dis whole yr. Very sad. May God bring the ppl that He wants. During the calling, I got to know a few ppl better. But I sense a certain resistance (as in nxt time betta dun call me again). I cant help feel sad abt it. Bcos for 1 of them, her life is quite messy. I'm not too sure how open she is to me, but I reali pray for the love and tenacity and strength to be involved in her life, bringing her the good news Jesus Christ brought.
Gotta finish my preparation for chem pract tml at 9am. Mayb will rd chem again or mayb history. I need strength to overcome my tiredness.
Thank God for privilege to do all these things. =)
blessed by Father; wHeE
