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Friday, April 28, 2006
1900 27042005 marked the end of my second semester in NUS.
I wish I can take all the modules on organic chemistry. =)
Went down to clementi mac for evaluation for FUM party. Chee Hong sat in. He reminded us (at for me) of the most important thing each and everyone's role is. We were taught that in our last last retreat (when we stayed up the whole night just to plan for an event we were assigned).
Programme - Concept must be exciting and relevant. Must have mass participation (He gave an example of an event YFC organised a very long time ago when there's only 100 ppl who played out of the 1000 people who went. The rest were basically cheering only)
Publicity - Communication and information. To communicate with the programme (digging out info) and to communicate to people who are to publicise the event. He suggested that publicity is 'selling sand to people in the desert'. That adds 'persuasiveness (is there such a word?)' into the list.
Admin - resourceful (for sponsors)
Logistic - resourceful (if a packet of rice sells $4, must be resourceful enough to find one that costs $2)
Overall i/c - COORDINATE and MAKE DECISIONS. In making decisions, you hear out from your committee. Of course, ultimately, being the clearest of what is happening, you make the decision. On the other hand, he cannot be uncertain, only hearing views and not daring make decisions as everyone is waiting for him to give the direction.
Good reminders. Wonderful privilege to serve the Lord my God.
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Now that exams are overeth, holidays have cometh. I'm trying weir hard to pack my time. I borrowed the Da Chang Jin vcd from Barney. Woo hoo.. While the secondary school ppl are having their holidays, I'm gg to be reali reali free.. Bahz.. Maybe I'll decide to finish the whole of new testament. Wahaha.. That's too much. At least Thessalonians, finish up 2 Corinthians. Haunt pastor for gospel's questions that zixin askd, my friend asked.
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Am now in office. Supposed to have a meeting at 10am. But someone forgot abt it. So meeting's pushed to 4pm. Am being very free, I helped in the preparation of song booklets for the china mission trip. I took abt 4hrs to get one song booklet out. Zap the songs from various sources for enlargement, edit manually the unclear parts, zapped to A5 size again, compile everyth, print cover page, staple everything. Well done! I'm so proud of myself. Hmm.. Praise the Lord for this diligence and strength to serve.
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She is as happie as a toad again.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
You know, Geok Lan doesnt like to lose. But.. She's gg to fail her soci exam. (ya, those who know her, you'd know what her fail means, just in case she is going to stumble anyone) Hmms.. She is just not contented. Bahzz...
Ytd, she went to school. Sat down and decided she was not feeling well. So she left school in 1hr time. She saw many ppl. There's Derek (her chem major friend), liyi (her kindergarten, pri, sec, and now uni friend), mui hwee (sec sch friend). She met them on the bus because she missed the previous bus 95 which was packed with many ppl gg off from the 2nd batch (1-3pm) of exams. She went home and slept. And woke up. Stil unwell. She started studying at 9pm. She can't concentrate. She probably thinks she knows everything cos she's been touching it since last mon. If not, she just doesnt want to touch it. Her notes are so pretty she begins to ogle. Den she struggles. Den she cried out to God, to SY. Den SY her friend asks her to do QT. So she decided to read the Bible (because she has done her QT.) And she finished 1 Corinthians. Chapter 1-15. Then, God answered her prayers when she read that book. Then she slept. And she woke up at 6am. Read thru her notes.
Everything was fine until...
Girl 1: Oh I didnt sleep ytd.. You know I had a paper ytd at 5.
Girl 2 - She filled her whole booklet with words.
She could do all the questions in the paper. All.. But.. She's uncertain. This is a trial to her. A trial to humble her. A trial to remind her to 'seek ye first the kingdom of God'. A trial to teach her to trust even if she gets a B. What a proud woman.
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"Father, You are good."
(As much as her heart does not feel so, her mind tells her He is good regardless of who she is, how she feels and what happens)
She is probably going to read thru the whole of new testament if the same thing happens again today.
She's in pain for her heart and her mind are not connecting.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
I was reading 1 Kings and I found something very interesting.
1 Kings 10:22 NKJV
For the king had merchant ships at sea with the fleet of Hiram. Once every three years the merchant ships came bringing gold, silver, ivory, apes, and monkeys.
SY, see the last word!! wahahah.. other versions are baboons. wahaha..
Some wise words:
1 Kings 10:4 (NKJV) And when the queen of Sheba had seen all the wisdom of Solomon, the house that he had built, 5 the food on his table, the seating of his servants, the service of his waiters and their apparel, his cupbearers, and his entryway by which he went up to the house of the LORD, there was no more spirit in her.
==> Wisdom is exhibited in little things.
My national director (not reali him, but fr michael) defined wisdom as the skillful application of God's truth.
Still learning...
Verse of the week
"Therefore, my brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labour in the Lord is not in vain. "
- 1 Cor 15:58 NIV (I typed dis entirely by myself. Purely memory verse. Short of 2 commas) =P
blessed by Father; wHeE
Monday, April 24, 2006
Jia Yan sent me dis links. Ooo.. Do take time to view this children of God. I enjoyed especially the last one.
http://www.donghaeng.net/english/love.htm
http://www.donghaeng.net/english/faith.htm
http://www.donghaeng.net/english/cross.htm
http://www.donghaeng.net/english/duty.htm
blessed by Father; wHeE
Am reali amazed by Ronaldinho's ball control. My bro was telling me abt it the other day when we saw him on tv. Oooo.. Amazed. Bleh, can't watch the arsenal match cos of soci exam.
Ate lunch with fellow bimbo at ARTs after our paper.(O, i find dis very interesting. WE had our exam in the life sci lab. It's probably the only lab that has air con) We had a good chat! Thank God for that! Then we went to chinese library to study. It's our first time there and there was a sign saying 'members only'. So we were hovering ard and wondering if we were members. Then our friend came by and told us we can go in. Any NUS student is a member in all the libraries. Wahaha.. What sua gus.. The only ting abt chinese library is that you'd need to tap your matric card to go in unlike other libraries. Hmm..
And I had a 'paper cut' in my eye. Was walking and sorting out the papers I printed at central library (next door to CL). ya.. I couldnt stop tearing. When I saw bimbo, hmm, serene, I was almost crying.. wahaha.. I tink i'm gg to sound dumb here. But I think God's amazing. He's created our body to be reali amazing?! Tears wash away the bacteria that may have entered our eyes. If I'm not wrong, I think it's quite serious if we have an eye infection. Our body is reali well-designed.
On my way home on the train, I saw two girls eating on the train. I was reali reali disturbed. So I went up to them and told them to observe the rules of the train. I reali had no peace. That they shamefully stopped their eating. They may jolly well eat when they cross to the other train at JE. At least, they were warned.
And, it caused me to think. When they were told, their response was immediate. But sometimes as children of God, when we were corrected, is our response as immediate? Hrmph..
blessed by Father; wHeE
Taking a break from all the memorising..
I still think night's the best time to study. So peaceful when no one disturbs. My brain's optimum absorption time.
O, did I mention that 20% of our faeces are your bacteria? Yuck.. The internal organs of our body are generally sterile except for 'few' parts (that's what the textbook claims). The 'few' parts are your mouth, throat, small intestine (ileum- the last section of the intestine), large intestine (many! especially... especially... *trying very hard to recall.. Escherichia coli!), colon. So few..
Back to studying...
blessed by Father; wHeE
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Yay.. Four more days and my agony's OOOOVer.
22/04/06 Sat 1300 CM1121 Basic Organic Chemistry EXAM
24/04/06 Mon 900 LSM 1304 Microbes, Man and Environment EXAM
26/04/06 Wed 900 SC1101E Making Sense of Society EXAM
27/04/06 Thu 900 CM1131 Basic Physical Chemistry EXAM (Open book)
27/04/06 Thu 1700 HY1101E Asia and its Modern World EXAM (Open book)
The Organic Chem exam ytd was not too tough. I could do most of the questions. Whether it'll be reflected in the results is another issue. Oooo, I reali love Organic Chem.. I think the ability to do it and to like it is given.. By Him. Waiting to see if I should 'specialise' in that.
Now that my favourite module exam's over, I feel kinda lost. Not much motivation to revise for everyth.. But, I'll still do my best. =) (Remembering that Jesus Christ didnt want to be crucified as well, yet He obeyed the Father)
I was supposed to go to another church for their service with my stdt. But.. I'm so sad, she's sick. Sad not only bcos she's sick, but bcos I'd miss out the service. Am I coveting for that service. Gdness.
Came back reali late ytd after having supper at little India with the crazy gang (Alvin, LF, DZ, Robert (Huey's bro, is tt how you spell his name) and Huey of course). It's reali cool to have a vehicle ard. Wahaha.
There's a time for everything. Time to meet God.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
I received a reali reali wonderful news on monday when I went to school to meet my friend. She has made a response to the truth. Meaning she has decided to accept Jesus Christ as her personal Lord and Saviour on Good Friday!
God is amazing! I reali think so. Seeing how He worked, how He used me, how He used many other people to talk to her. I'm sure it's not by chance that we meet in NUS chemistry. Science is her fourth choice la.. It's not by chance that the issue abt God is being raised up. I stil remember during the mid-term break one day that SMS came which said 'God is messing up my life'. From then, I was challenged to share with her the truth because she went to a cath church with a friend whom she just know for a few days. But knowing her for 2semesters, my sharing progress with her was so slow. That was when the sharing accelerated and her understanding of God and yearningness to seek God accelerated. Prayers answered! Joy Joy Joy!
Luke 15:10 In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.
She said to me during supper. It was reali encouraging. "Why you so holy but hang out with me, such a big sinner?" I was utterly shocked when she said that. I nv knew this term 'holy' can be used to describe me, such an utter sinner. And as I told her how sinful and bad I was last time, I was reminded of how God has worked in my heart and allowed such change. But holy? maybe not yet. But it's a reali wonderful encouragement. =)
Glory be to God.
blessed by Father; wHeE
I stand amazed in the presence
Of Jesus the Nazarene,
And wonder how He could love me,
A sinner, condemned, unclean.
Refrain
O how marvelous! O how wonderful!
And my song shall ever be:
O how marvelous! O how wonderful!
Is my Savior’s love for me!
For me it was in the garden
He prayed: “Not My will, but Thine.”
He had no tears for His own griefs,
But sweat drops of blood for mine.
Refrain
In pity angels beheld Him,
And came from the world of light
To comfort Him in the sorrows
He bore for my soul that night.
Refrain
He took my sins and my sorrows,
He made them His very own;
He bore the burden to Calvary,
And suffered and died alone.
Refrain
When with the ransomed in glory
His face I at last shall see,
’Twill be my joy through the ages
To sing of His love for me.
Refrain
blessed by Father; wHeE
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Thursday
I went to school in the morning. Wanted to reach at 7 but reached at 10.30. Why? Cos I overslept. So took my own sweet time to do my quiet time. I tremendously enjoy doing QT as though I have nothing to do. Wait till next week when I've gotta cramp all my revision. Not feeling the stress yet. Then again, i can feel it coming..
After last lecture (microbes) , or rather tutorial, I went to meet YiXin for dinner. Our very first dinner date. We had dinner at lot one 3rd floor. The food court for muslims. I dislike eating at these kind of place (that's why I seldom go to banquet at jp). But i ate there. We had a wonderful chat abt many tings. Abt ppl in our JC, about God and other things.
Then we went to church for the Good Friday service. I was kinda disappointed. It's an expectation problem. The service wasnt like last yr, when no one led the whole thing. I expected a time of reflection rather than 'music performances' by ppl. I was probably tired (think I sleep too much) I wasnt concentrating much. No singing, no responses to God except for one song.
After that Yi Yi told me 2 jokes. It's reali funny. I must tell someone when I go back to school.
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Good Friday
Met Christine to do Good Friday Street E. We did it separately. I met SuLing's choir junior. She's probably one of the rarer sec ones who doesnt know what Good Friday's about. So I chat and shared with her.
Then Christine reached and met this girl. Then her friend appeared. I went to the friend. And she said no in a hostile manner. Rejected. And I was rather shocked to go to the next person. So I prayed and reminded myself why I was there and I went to the next person. I met this girl who was reali sweet. She was realli attentive and we had a good chat. She shared her opinions abt her unwillingness to commit. So I challenged her and passed her tract and encouraged her to read the Bible. I do hope the Lord will work in her heart. =)
Then went for band bs. I must agree that the material is a bit tough. The question is rather ambiguous. I remembered the last time i had BS with the band was during the exposure. (haha..) I was very focused in answering the question than studying the text for myself and didn't gain much. But this time I find that I gain more out of the text. I find it very helpful if we spend more time thinking about what the text is saying. But I suspect some don't or lack the skills in doing it or jump straight to the application. May the Lord allow growth in the learning of His word.
Went to Ying's place for revision with Ting. I'm glad to see Ting. She's reali so much skinnier.
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Saturday
F.U.M party
Everything went hay wire. I was going crazy. We were behind time. We were supposd to start practicing at 12. But everyone was still busy setting up. Fine, so change to 12.45. Then Romans went up and started emceeing. Parts band cleared the stage. AND WENT TO EAT. Goodness. I thought I was very clear in telling them, rehearsal at 12.45. Then lack of manpower. And projector not there. Laptop not there. And many tings my project coord didnt communicate to me. Like my game pack they were supposed to collect at admin table. Dedication slips to be on the table but Gerald was holding it AND WLD NOT BE GG THERE EARLY. And I needed to add an extra set to the game pack. I was horrendously upset at one point I snapped at him. I prayed and reminded myself I'm serving the Lord.
Now that I look back, I realised, I shld hv submitted to him when he said we could pass everything to group leaders when the group leaders have a last briefing at the MRT. Furtheremore, It was more helpful. Cos the admin person forgot to pass one of my game sheet to some groups. So during the game, I went to the admin table, grabbed the game sheets and passed it around to tables which doesnt have it. On my part, there were definitely many tings which I didnt inform Lionel.
I'm very thankful ppl helped. Ivy advised me to take control of the ppl using the PA mike. So I took the mike, told everyone it's not happening. I was very thankful they were responsive and cooperating. And rehearsal officially started at 1pm for the 2.5hrs programme. And students would stream in by 1.30. Then I realised I couldnt be doing the projection and controlling everything at the same time. I ran to Lionel telling him he need to provide me a projection person. (And food side lacked manpower as well) So within half and hr, while we rehearsed, I watch Romans emcee, teach my projection person what to click, monitored Moo Dean in doing the sound, and thinking what more was lacking simultaneously. It was madness. Thank God for that tenacity He's trained me during the previous events.
I forgot to get the answer for one of my games even after running through the programme in my mind a few times. It's the kind where you have the lyrics cut up into 10 parts. Each part is labelled with a letter. And you are supposed to arrange the lyrics back and SMS the letters after arranging it. AND I had two sets. I was going to piece the lyrics myself before I realised I had the answer in my thumbdrive. Thank God so much!! This much!!
And I was supposed to sort out the dedication slips. But I didnt have time to. And Ivy did it for me. PArts ppl made themselves useful by serving food to the ppl which we didnt inform them to do so beforehand. Thank God for providing the resources despite many waiters backed out.
Then, the SML cafe person, Frankie, offered to drive us to church seeing that it was raining heavily. Thank God that he overheard my conversation with Lionel that church is somewhere near. We walked through mac to get to the carpark side. While waiting for him to get his car outside mac, I saw this guy attempting to steal a handphone on a table unattended. But this group of ppl (duno if it was their hp) saw him and stopped him when I was abt to catch him. This guy apparently helped us in moving the chairs and the SML cafe ppl warned us that this guy always appear during events and things got lost. But no one had evidence against him. So thank God I saw him taking that phone and Frankie's gg to report to the CC ppl.
Service
Late for service. Was very very disturbed with the projection. I was rather upset. I prayed and asked Him for a pure motive to do the evaluation. I was thankful He gave me the wisdom to speak wisely and tactfully. At least, I used my gentleness (strength under control) during the evaluation. Thank God for the ability to observe well to see things deeply and not superficially.
I reali wonder, how many ppl wld rebuke when there's a need to (not referring to this particularly case k)? I'm glad ppl encourage one another. But do we think abt the kind of attitude the person has when he is 'serving the Lord'? I think we havent considered that if the person's attitude is wrong, by encouraging that person, it's not loving. First we stumble that person. He wld go off thinking this kind of standard is ok. Second, the person cannot grow in the Lord with a wrong understand of service to God.
Encouragement is good if it is used appropriately.
Supper with Huey.
I was reali thankful for that time of chatting with Huey on our way to Al Azhar. God used her to affirm me in His ministry. I was a bit uncertain a while ago. And I was reali thankful for that time of chatting while Huey, LF and I were walking to the bus-stop. It was a good time of talking abt the work in church. Very enriching and refreshing.
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God knows what we need. And He provides. =) It's so wonderful to know Him.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
ppl, pls be considerate to me. When you see me, pls DO NOT ask me to sleep. I've been slpg a lot. A LOT. and I mean it. It's 8hrs a day for the past few days. And I find myself lacking the discipline to jump out of bed as I used to. The issue's abt discipline. And slpg less is one of the discipline I need. If I can manage dis well, I believe I can be disciplined in other things.
So tonight will be the night when I'll turn back to being nocturnal again. Nocturnal meaning I'll attempt to slp slightly later than the pass few days like 2pm? I duno, i feel tt sense of reluctance le. See.. Comfort is so important to me now.
As it has been taught, and I have been teaching others to do so, following Christ means giving up our comfort when there's a need to.
There's seriously a need to forsake my bodily comfort to do many useful and purposeful tings. I've hibernated long enough. Time to chong chu jiang hu.
The lack of discipline can oso be shown in
1. Taking a zillion years to pack my stuff when I go out
2. Taking a zillion years to start studying (at home)
3. Taking a zillion years to think abt what I shld be doing
4. Lack in self-control in relating to ppl
I need prayers and help. Hrmph..
blessed by Father; wHeE
Monday, April 10, 2006
Am using my friend's laptop. Hoo.. So cool. I sound like someone from sua teng (mountain top) wahaha..
Wanted to blog dis in the previous blog but forgot.
On saturday, I thought it's a good time of counting God's blessings. At least I saw how much suying and I grew. Many times we fail to count God's blessings. As Hsiao Ling always say, it's very important to count it and give thanks to the Lord. A form of assurance and encouragement for us to move on. Thank God for giving us trials and disciplining us. For God disciplines His child. =)
An older personnel actually suggested that the older you grow, the more sinful you see yourself being. I think that's quite true. I always think that I have not grown. But after the talk with sy last sat, i saw how much i've matured in dealing things, and in being more sensitive to sin. Good and bad. Bad bcos I'd tend to think i've not grown. Hence, the need to count God's blessings that we do not complain abt our growth. Heh..
Gotta do stuff le for FUM party. Have a long list. Very excited and nervous. Scared I cannot cope. But my assurance is, i'm doing it for my Lord.
Just do my best. God'll do the rest. =)
blessed by Father; wHeE
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Ooo, I watched the speed video. I hate to say dis, but water rolled out uncontrollably fr mi eyes.. hmm... den I found long way home video. whoaa... the whole dance can be seen weir clearly! Ah Ying, we can complete our long way home dance le. no need to always stuck at chorus. muahaha.
Had a good talk with Ying fr da zoo. Both of us are apparently facing trials. Can't help but be reminded of James 1:2 Consider it pure joy, my brethren, when you face trials of many kidns. It helped to talk abt it and to think abt what can be done abt it. It also helped to know I'm not the only one facing trials. We are growing up as a body in Christ. =)
I kinda miss Stephen Tong's James session. I wana go back. Resolution: I'll go in 2weeks time after my exams end. If I'm disciplined enough, I'm quite sure I can go back by next week (if he's hvg the session then).
Coming week is madness and rushness cos of F.U.M party. Yet I feel that my timetable's abit empty. Just because I finished revising for organic chem doesnt mean the rest of the modules are done. The heart is indeed deceitful.
I reali looooovvvveeee organic chem. Will God please give me the ability to remember all the mechanisms and the different types of reactions?
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Intended to go down for publicity on fri. Bt underestimated the time I spent on finishing my last lab report. So studied in school on friday. I'm so glad Geraldine appeared.
I'm running away from the problem and I hurt ppl bcos I was hurt. That's so selfish. May the Lord teach me to respond rightly and lovingly. Think that showed how I prize that thing in my life to even be hurt.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Friday, April 07, 2006
God is faithful. Geok's placed many things in her heart over God. People, studies, singing. I have idolised so many things. Sin is idolatry.
Ytd was the breakthrough. I prayed and asked God to forgive me. The prayer was answered immediately on that day. He helped me to look at things with a pure mind, to be able to do what is right. I reali enjoy the ability to worshp Him - to be doing everything for my God. There's dis immense joy in me I can't describe. As much as the things I idolise may have brought much fun and satisfaction, they are a far cry from this ability to reali be joyful. They can't even be compared. The fun and satisfaction is truly the consequence of sin. Once you get in it, it's so tough to get out. And you'd happily think there's nothing wrong in your life. I'm so thankful that He was sounding to me that there's something wrong in the way I'm living.
Being happy may not mean everything is fine.
He is indeed faithful. I've tested it for myself.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Been slpg for long hrs (7-8hrs) dis days. Tink the sleep debt is taking effect now.
Today's cls starts at 4pm - History lect. No more mrng rush for soci tut, soci lect and physical chem lect back to back fr 8am - 2pm. nxt wk's the last wk for the semester. Followed by rdg wk, then exams will COME.
Yay, most of the lectures will finish by dis wk. Except one horrendous life science lect. The lecturers (2 out of 4) were reali trying to waste time. Ok, I mean they give fresh insights. But they can dwell at one teeny weeny point of the slide for 15min before moving on. Like ytd, LYK stopped at dis pigs' tingy that it has a very high BOD (biological oxgyen demand) The higher it is, the more you cannot consume it. It has a BOD of 25000. And he started talking abt pigs, recycling their waste by having a multi-storey pig sty. It's quite interesting but, he spent 20 min juz talking abt that 1 point out of the 5 tings in that slide.
So nxt wk, mon - org chem tut (yay =) ) and life science lect (hrmph) tues no more lect, thurs - life science tutorial. Fri's good friday! (and reading week starts fr fri)
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I asked Pastor abt Samson. The bible had four chapters abt him. I was quite troubled cos there's one part when Samson saw a woman fr Timnah and set his eyes on her. The parents adviced him to choose oth ppl cos the woman is 'foreign'. Then one of the verses mentioned abt the parents not knowing that it was God seeking an opportunity to go against the Philistine.
When I first read it, it seemed like God wanted for that to happen so that he could go against the Philistine (sounds kukufying, but...). But Pastor said it was the writer's perspective. God has a plan. Even when we sin, He is still able to make sure His plan happens. Despite Samson's sin (to be a Nazirite to God but he did all the things that a Nazirite's not supposed to, eat carcass, marry foreign woman, shave c.f. Numbers), God still carries out His plan to move against the Philistine. Just that, the Philistine's werent chased out. So the Bible's conclusion's Samson's the only judge that failed to bring peace to Israel (peace meaning chasing enemies out of land)
An answered prayer. (I prayed for understanding) He is good and faithful even when horrendous things happen.
blessed by Father; wHeE
