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Monday, January 29, 2007
Thank God for Sheila Khoo who prayed with me.
Thank God for Si Si who showed concern and offered to meet up with me.
Thank God for qiqi too!
Thank God for ppl who prayed for me.
Thank God for concerned ppl.
Thank God for reminding me that my focus is on Him not the things that are overwhelming.
Thank God for everything.
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Jap tutorials r funny. We were supposed to go prepared for the tutorial remembering some of the conversations in the textbk.
Scene 1:
My tutor started asking in Jap, presenting something to one of the girls in the cls,
"anoo, korewa, honno kimochi desu" (Well... This is a token of my appreciation)
The girl was supposed to reply
"Domo.... Nan desu ka?" (Thank you... What is that?)
(Okay, now it'd require a lil' bit of imagination.)
But.. She was very shocked by the tutor's gentle and very kind tone. And she went
"Nan desu ka?!!!!" (What is it??!!!)
Then a friend commented,
"Whoa, she look so shock!" and acted saying, "Nan desu ka?!!!" with that very shocked look. And she shouted very loudly in the class,
"BOMB DESU!" (It's a bomb)
HAHAHA....
Scene 2:
We were supposed to practice asking either/ or questions. The tutor gave us pictures with 6 different kinds of ice-cream. And we were paired up. 1 of the pair is supposed to ask while the other can answer whatever answer you want. The tutor gave us a tad too much time that we started doing really silly tings,
me: (pointing to the blue colour ice-cream) korewa blue coral desu ka, yam desu ka? (Is this blue coral or yam?)
partner: yam desu. (It's yam)
WHAAHAH. I thot it's the ultimate le. But.. another grp went..
A-san (person A): korewa suturoberii desu ka, durianberii desu ka? (Is this strawberry or durian berry?!)
It's so huanny!
Scene 3:
My tutor sticked a picture of Takuya Kimura on the whiteboard. He went
"ano kata, donata desu ka?" (Who's this person?)
"Takuya Kimura san desu. Smap no member" (Mr Takuya Kimura. A member of Smap)
Then he sticked another picture.. We were wondering who's the other person, and it turned out to be his picture! WAhaha.. Then he asked again,
"ano kata, donata desu ka?"
The whole cls answered and one of my clsmates was very cheeky, he went
"smap no member desu!"
and my tutor went "hai hai hai!" (yes yes yes) and asked the whole class, pointing at his picture
"ano kata, smap no member desu ka?" (Is this person a member of smap?)
and of course the cls went, "hai!"
wahahaha..
There's more huanny tings. Haha. Jap cls is fun.
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I have a date on Valentine's Day! Argh!
And my date's a test in the evening! =( =) =( =) =( =)
Phew.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Thursday, January 25, 2007
This song's my comfort. Currently, my stress level is reaching an amazing stage I don't know how I survived the past few weeks. Each morning I wake up, I feel really really stress, tired, and energyless. No matter how long I slp, it is so everyday for the past few days. All I can do is to pray. And ask the Lord to grant me the strength to lead each day.
As much as I try to pray, and read God's word, He seems out of reach. While I was trying to blog, this song came to my mind, and it just comforts me. The lyrics are so apt in my situation now.
I don't know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.
Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.
I desire a break. I really do.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Monday, January 22, 2007
I'm in school waiting for my print job agn before I head for the next mtg.
Such a kuku. Just finished my jap tutorial and am in the arts library. The whole system changed agn so I had to kuku-ly ask someone how to get a com.
I missed 3 lectures today. Sobs. Woke up with gastric. So went to slp. Then had stomachache. Must be the food ytd. I was describing the form of the faeces to my friend over sms. She told me I may have worms in my stomach that are laying eggs inside. Sounds scary. And suggested the probability of having tapeworms in my stomach. Yuck! Tapeworm. URgh. I don't know whether I shld have gd appetite or not now. Good appetite because of tapeworms, bad appetite oso because of the tapeworm. ee.. I'm kinda hungry.
Saw Pengswee at jp just now. He was gg to work at 7-11's. OoOo.. Will kar jiao him someday. Kz..
Have informers to tell me abt the match ytd. Woke up with all my sms-es regarding the match. And of course! Arsenal wins! Hurray! Kudos to Henry for the header! To think man-utd was leading! And of course Adebayor and Van Persie (he's a real cool player!) and all!
Gone.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Sunday, January 21, 2007
For the first time in my life, four pemers are studying together. Sam sam, Ting ting, ah ying and I. Cool!
Kinda dread studying. Especially chemistry.
Past few days have been crazy, amazing, exciting, tiring, laborious, tough. Thank God for bringing me through.
Am enlightened by various ppl for the past few days. Observing, thinking and all. Metamorphosis.
Worried. But I know things are in God's hands. Another process of learning to trust. =) Please pray for me.
Arsenal vs Man Utd in 2 hrs time. WAHAHA.
Back to statistics (Analytical Chemistry)
blessed by Father; wHeE
Friday, January 19, 2007
I finally swam after don't know how many years. You can say I'm lousy but I'm having muscle aches all over my body. Hahah.. My bones are falling apart. Hmm.. It has enabled me to be disciplined to sleep as it makes me tired physically.
Went home with a friend whom I met in the jap lecture last wk. It was exciting. Tho I felt like an entrtainer. Haha.. I hope I have the chance to share with her. =) Finished the katakana words as well.
My little cousin so resembles me when I was young. ha.. she's so cute. haha.. (no intention to praise myself) My uncle is so sweet. He'd send my aunt home whenever she's on night shift no matter how tired or how much work he has at hand.
I'm totally not functioning when it's daytime.
Met up with Eugene! He's truly funny. I'm pretty amazed by his wits. How he survived so many places (poly, army etc) winning the favour of people. Blessed. His life is like.. Forrest Gump? Haha.. The major diff is he's not dumb.
Yay.. Inez actually transited on mon. She tried to call me. But .. I didn't see her call. =( She's "struggling". Pls pray for her.
Thanks Shaoning for the conversation ytd. =)
I tink I have a lot of funny visitors ard. Haha.. And I know some of them. Haha.. U can feel free to reveal who you are. Haha..
blessed by Father; wHeE
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Yay! I finished practicing the Hiragana words for Jap. That's the only thing I'm ahead of time. Boo..
Was so excited I culd identify the words on top of fiesta. It goes fu-i-e-su-ta. Yay.. haha.. Yay..
I finally paid the bills for my mum. She asked me to do it last wk. But somehow.. I can't imagine having to pay my own bills nxt time.
Was at McCafe's. My favourite McCafe drink's fluffy. It's so yummy. It is steamed milk with a fluffy top. There's chocolate powder on top and a marshmallow was given. The sweetness of the coco powder and the marshmallow goes really nice with the milk. I peeped and saw that they use farmhouse full-cream milk. This is deadly for bimbos. Full-cream! It's so fattening. Wahahaa..
blessed by Father; wHeE
Monday, January 15, 2007
I'm waiting for my print job to be done in school before I can collect and leave. So.. yeap.. Have been waiting..
Was editing the slides while waiting and I chanced upon this song. It took me a while to realise that we always sing it in chinese. Somehow, the english version seems to penetrate more for me..
When I look into Your holiness
When I gaze into Your loveliness
When all things that surround become shadows
In the light of You
When I've found the joy of reaching Your heart
When my will become enthroned in Your love
When all things that suround become shadows
In the light of You
I worship You I worship You
The reason I live is to worship You
okie dokes. Think my print job's done.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Whoo..
Just had brunch with a chemistry and a life science friend. haha.. We started talking abt crayon shin (la bi xiao xin). And I kinda miss it. I mean the funny parts, not the obscene ones. haha.. like everytime he goes home, he's supposed to say "I'm back (wo hui lai le)" but he purposely say "you're back (ni hui lai le)". And he calls his mother by her name "mei ya". And his kuku laughter and craze for dong gan chao ren. wahaha.. Gosh.. I hate this. Now I understand sy's craze abt conan.
A dear Japanese friend whom I met in Australia transited here before she leaves for Japan. Was really busy so am a bad host. Hmm.. I gave her a packet of bak kwa to bring home. During the 2 days of bringing her ard, I got to know that she loves sweet stuff but doesn't really fancy spicy stuff. Brought her to the coffee shop near EH (Aljunied) for the very nice yong tau foo.
This week's going to be a cool week. I got my timetable planned out only realise I forgot to slot in time for swimming. Anyways, I'm gg to swim on wed and fri. Planning for two days just in case it fails. So it's a healthy week. And I'll get myself tanned to balance the colour on my arms which has 2 obvious shades. Anybody wants to swim?? haha.. Laps I mean. Not playing with water. wahaha.
For the 1st time in my life, I culdn't sleep last night. Couldn't stop thinking. Yea, I even thot that I was still in the process of thinking but I was already dreaming. Then, I woke up, and went thru another horrible round of trying to slp. Bah.. Caffeine's affecting me in my slp. Mayb it's not the caffeine. Mayb it is. I don't know.
Exciting, many people's birthday's coming. Still haven't fill my cute lil calendar with the birthdays. Sheila Khoo's planned to have a birthday celebration with Christine Chan whose birthday falls on the same day as she. Hmm.. Their birthday's in October. Bleh.. The planning's a bit early hor..
Discovered a very interesting part of Paul's life when I was doing QT ytd. It's in 2Corinthians10 and 11 i think. Touched. Encouraged. Amazed. How can he live this kind of life. Can only think that God is to be praised.
Life goes on.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Thursday, January 11, 2007
This is an ungodly time to blog. But I can't sleep after sleeping for 7hrs from 11am to 6pm just now. Hmm..
Have only 1 lecture this morning at 8am and left sy's plc early in the mrng for cls. Was looking forward to meeting my bimbo friend. On the other side of my brain, I was also looking forward to meeting another friend. But apparently, my brains got so entangled, that it didn't realise that I'd have 2 friends sitting with me. So it ended with 2 ppl who do not know each oth beside me. Bimbo told me a joke abt scaring her brother it's so funny with her drama mama genes. So glad she's a really friendly girl.
I'm going to take Jap and challenge DZ for irritating me last year at the youth camp by speaking jap the whole while. WAHAHA.
Yay, the pemers shall unite tml after how many years.
My voice is so warmed up now that I wana singie.
Watched superstar just now. Poor Averil (the one who looks like a "ghost"). Her voice is so nice. I was mesmerized by her when she sang "fly away" in the 1st round. But she's being criticised by the judges so badly. Botak (shui shang piao) says she's taking up the place of good singers. In fact, last last wk, it was so bad that he looked really disgusted by the way she sings.
Carrie's voice sounded so nice. I think it came out from the diaphragm. Voice quality sounded quite different from her normal singing. She sang "wo wu suo wei". Sy and I always sang this song in sec 2. (I think she forgot)
Failed attempt to meet ah yu ytd. Kinda miss her esp after I called her on mon night. The moment she said "hello", i started laughing. She's the only female person who can make me laugh non-stop whenever I talk to her. Every little sentence or word that comes out of her mouth becomes a joke man.. I miss her. Boo..
Watched whisper of the heart at suying's. Very sweet show. Eee... The plot is really nice except that it has a sudden ending. Sy, suling and I were squealing when the guy proposed and she accepted. And then it ended.
Time to sleep. Nites.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
This will be a brighter post. haha..
Nothing can express how thankful I am to the Lord for bringing me this whole day. I went to my 1st lecture - physical chem lect, the famous Dr Fan Wai Yip impressed me. When the whole LT was talking, he let us talk til everyone kinda realise that something's wrong. Then he went "enough gossiping abt your holidays?" Sarcastic. But I'm very impressed. And he's the only lecturer whom I think deserved that much respect. (This much. Yea) The only lecturer who asks the latecomers to come in by the backdoor because it is disruptive. (It shld be common sense but.. a lot of ppl just barge in by the front door and try to look for their friends when they are like more than 15min late *rolls eyes) I am so impressed. And he's humorous. But he's only gg to take us for 7 weeks. (A semester has 13weeks.) And the way he explains the boring irritating chemical equations (ideal gas equation etc), he made it so lively and relevant. I hope, it'll continue to be that enjoyable.
Went for the 2nd lecture without knowing who i know'll appear there. Was just thinking of sitting beside some loner and start chatting with her or sth. And God brought this year 1 engine girl who sat beside me. I prayed for courage before talking to her. And she turns out to be so nice and fun. She laughed so easily at the sillie tings I said. I'm itching to bring her the wonderful news. =) It runs in my blood. I hope it continues to. YFC has trained me well in that.
3rd lecture - thot it's gg to be really horrible. The only common lecture I had with a gd friend who "forsaketh" me in the last sem unwittingly. I reconciled with her before the exams but not face to face. So the remnants of the hurts still existed. But.. After the lecture, she and the other 2 came over. And she passed me a silver-coloured envelope and another long enveloped entitled "Appendix A". Somehow, we joked and they accompanied me for brunch (at 330pm) and chatted a lil before they leave for the well-known horrible organic lecture by the other lecturer. (That's why I took organic chem in the 1st sem, got the nicer kiddo-like lecturer)
After they left, I read the card inside the silver-coloured envelope. It was a birthday cum apology card. A dear sister who's grown to be humble to apologise. I'm so thankful to God for this. And she affirmed me in the work God used me to do in her as she was in a tussle with the Lord. She sent me an SMS in the holidays sharing how much she appreciated what I did as she oso took on the role to lead another person to Christ. It's really heartwarming to see her grow.
And of course, in the appendix A was a tecman voucher. My birthday present for last year. Trust her to come up with such sillee tings. Appendix A. Did i mention the other time, she brought me a koko krunch cereal. She used liquid paper to remove the top part of the "O" of koko, so it became "kuku krunch". wahaha. So sweet of her.
Thank God for the wonderful surprises. Indeed, as I did my QT today, God works in ways we cannot see.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Sunday, January 07, 2007
I'm a scatterbrain. I think this whole post is going to reveal that.
For the past one week, I've been so emo, that I keep thinking abt my past, dropped at least 10 testimonials in one day, am so glad I met up with my secondary sch friends, frown abt having to go back to sch, grumble and whine with the horrible modules I have to take, unwilling to look forward to sch. Ouch.
I'm losing weight. I think I'm falling below the 45kg mark. I saw Geok Khim on the other day I was gg to Su Ying's plc, guess what's the first thing she said? "You lost weight". Even my mother, my own mother who sees me day in and day out (eh... not exactly day in and out since I've been staying over at other ppl's plc) said that. And Xin Yan, "you get thinner each time I see you, the next time you're gg to be bones and skin". Haha.. I think it's because I have been UNCONSCIOUSLY forgetting my meals and unconsciously eating very little. Yup. This morning, I had a quarter portion of laksa for breakfast and lunch and I feel full.
Make my life more bearable please. I'm so in a crying mode. I'm such a bull. High inertia to going to school. So not looking forward to school. Nothing makes me look forward to it. Even my friend forsaketh me in the last sem. The modules to take are so horrible. It's gg to be like the 1st sem. Nothing to look forward to. The lecturers I heard from ppl taking the modules doesn't sound good. I'm gg to love Sheila alot. But it's horrible. We can't keep trying to escape from reality.
Suddenly I'm reminded of one song that JJ ppl dance that for their orientation. "I will survive".
I think I know why i'm losing weight. Horrible appetite. Which sometimes can be caused by feeling downcast. I will survive yea. I believe in a God who's sovereign and is in control. I believe I'm created in the image of God who created me with a will to respond rightly. Hmm.. I know my brain is too strong for my heart too. I need reconcile that. Don't know how. But I'll pray. As a dear friend suggested
Jer 33:3
Call to me and I will answer you, and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.
The mystery of prayer.
My life is in You Lord
My strength is in You Lord
My hope is in You Lord
blessed by Father; wHeE
Friday, January 05, 2007
Nothing
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING CAN FILL THE HOLE FOR ORGANIC CHEM IN ME.
WHINES.
WHINES.
WHINES.
WHINES.
WHINES.
blessed by Father; wHeE
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
Is this enough to show how much I dread this sem? No more organic chem to take until year 3 unless I take a year 3 module.
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
I hate chemistry; i love organic chem
Yay. Yaying for what I don't know.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Was out with SY ytd. The exciting was when we had dinner/supper and we talked abt the secondary school days. I seriously think she has holes in her brains. She forgot a whole chunk of things. I'm going to express my nostalgicness here. And how amazing God has gave me wonderful friends in the process and enabled me to grow.
Sec 1--->
Went to the foyer on the day of reporting with YouShi, Yirong, Peggen. You Shi and I ended in the same class.
We were better friends with Hongmei and goes out for lunch after school occasionally.
SY, HT, Jasmine and I were in the same orientation group (to think some ppl forgot). Then the three of them got into Bball because of this guy who was our Student leader. I was still in my world with You Shi.
NDP - the drama comes
-- The whole 1C class was selected for the weekly horrible but fun trainings at the stadium
-- had my first gastric during one of the practices in the music room
-- I got to know SY better thru Hwee Teng who was my lab partner (only this part was contributed by SY)
-- Sitting on the bus together, joking and laughing together
-- We talked to Michelle Ong (from 1B) when she bought this very strange vege crackers but it's very yummy. How childish
-- You Shi and Geok Khim got closer. And was persuaded by SOMEBODY to convince you shi that GK wasn't a very nice person. Haha.. Sillee..
Extra lesson to improve our english or sth.
-- We were supposed to get into groups of four, so SY, HT, Danielle and I were in the same group. We were supposed to describe each other. SY and Danielle presented for our group and was chosen to get into ELDDS, SY came to be in the debating team after that.
-- Oh SY was supposed to read this national day poem which we came to realise wld be read every year. Then when it came to her section, she cleared her throat over the mic and landed with Ms Lai laughing at her for clearing the throat.
-- we were working on acting the Great Mouse plot but our mouse prop (The main character) was gone. SY has very creative ideas then.
History class with Mrs Chan (1B's form teacher)
-- Mrs Chan always catching ZiXin and Choon Peng (they were sitting behind YouShi and I) for talking
-- once she came into the class laughing very badly (the few times she'd laugh), there was this person in her class who was traumatised by her and needed to go washroom for big business but didn't dare to ask. So he did "it" in class.
-- boring history classes
Teachers day
-- Some Sec 3 boys wanted to play a prank on Danielle and so squirted lemon tea (i remembered it was Yeos lemon tea haha) from 3rd floor (oh man, how childish can they get), but the lemon tea landed on my skirt. I was very very upset with them. Danielle went up to scold them and exaggerated that I even cried. That I had to pretend to cry, half the time trying to not look at the person who apologised. Ended up with the nickname "lemon tea girl". Haha..
Folk dance classes
-- having to partner and hold hands with guys. Haha.. That part was hilarious. There was once we were punished to walk the parade square 3 rounds holding guys' hands.
-- I think that was when the rumour with XZ came (the after effects carried on to Sec 2. Wait and see what I did, very mean things haha)
-- Mr See saying our class wld def win sth during the folk dance night competition, but we didn't get a single prize.
Ms Boon Pek Chi
-- Our very 1st form teacher who was absent for 1 week when school started. Then we loved her so much but she left half a year later to another school.
-- Still remembered we played the pyramid game (charade like game) in class after our mid-years or sth
-- In Sec one, we have our mid-years in the 1st week of June holidays (thankfully they changed the system with violent protests)
Music class
-- How cheeky Nabawi got Miss Florence Koh's favour and thus her favour to the class
Xin Yan
-- always getting into fights with Chen Yie (Zhen yi) and that was how we got closer to each other
-- she spent my birthday with me. She bought me a really nice cake and a pikachu. Pokemon craze then. haha..
Mr Ben Lim
-- Math teacher with a mole near his eye
-- was chosen for math olympiad training but couldn't go for the competition because of the june exams.
-- went to his house in SEC 2 because the whole class couldn't understand what the math teacher was teaching.
Class
-->Inez
-- the newcomer who got 2nd in level position in June and 1st at the end of the year (Hongmei's opposite I think)
-- having to partner with her and Nalayani for a 3person project because SY, HT and XY's forming one group.
--> lame jokes and stupid IQ questions with youshi, xianzhao and weilun
-- One of 'em was from You shi, she said it with amazing speed ( i think it was 10words per sec haha) : Imagine you are the driver. At the 1st bus stop, 39ppl boarded the bus, 12 ppl alighted. At the 2nd bus stop, 15ppl boarded the bus, 20ppl alighted. At the 3rd bus stop, nobody boarded the bus, 8ppl alighted. At the 4th bus stop, 10ppl boarded the bus, 3ppl alighted. At the 5th bus stop, 9ppl boarded the bus and nobody alighted. Here comes the question, who is the bus driver? (XZ and WL couldn't answer that wahaha)
--> the class guys started calling Gunalan "lycos" (go get it). Implication: dog
blessed by Father; wHeE
It's over.. As Alvin said it, it's so real yet not so real. (something like that)
Was an usher at the door. Met sooo many ppl. Many familiar faces. I even said hi to ppl whom I know but wld nv ever do that if I see them on the streets. Ppl like Joshua (from KSS) etc. There's this really weird person, I still can't recall who he is. He came up to me and said hi. I gave him that blank look (apologetically) and asked him his name, still trying to dig out from my dusty brains when he ever appeared my life. Am still trying to. After the whole thing, we talked but I'm a bit suspicious of the things he's saying. Weird. So I went to MD asking him when I'd ever see him. Apparently, he's not supposed to be very prominent, at least not in my memory. Oh, and Grace (the wedding coordinator) forgot Zili. To think she was his mentor once (If i'm not wrong)
The silly kiddos kept laughing at Jia Yan for wearing a skirt. What kukus. haha..
After the whole thing, uncle Lonnie and Bee Ngoh came up to me at different times saying the same thing. I shan't disclose what they say. Can try and guess.
Had pepper lunch at lot one with Sheila. Am looking forward to the weekly sharings and meetings when school starts. Arts canteen is officially closed for renovation.
I don't feel flattered (not in the negative sense). Just thankful how the Lord allowed ups and downs in the process and led me thru it. Am still trying to get over the effects of it. I don't feel right in the way I responded. I think I need an evaluation. Ha ha.. Am very thankful for the various ppl who came up to me to encourage me. Tho I felt that I'm assuring them more. Ha.. But it helped. Thanks to Wini and Huiyi for the hugs and WY too, Mag, Shaoning, Elph, Hannah, LF too. Thanks to SY for being around and helping me with the make-up. I couldn't remember how I did it or even what was happening, no nervousness, not at all. I was looking at Hsiao Ling all the while - she was singing with us, while MingDe, with that as usual stony look, was looking at the projection. Haha..
From the interpretations, I think it's either my brain is not clicking with my heart and my expressions or ppl do not understand what is going on. Hrmph. Haha.
I think now I know what's happening. =)
Check out my dictionary of expressions.
Sad - laugh very very hard
Happy - laugh
Disappointment - silence, downcast
Stress - panic, anger
People who worked with me should be familiar with at least one of these for the past few days.
I believed (and still am believing) that God is sovereign. =)Labels: The Wedding
blessed by Father; wHeE
