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Sunday, November 25, 2007
Argh. Two days to the first paper CM3292. It's open book. At the back of my brains, I've assumed it to be easy as we did some of the stuff in year 2. I barely touched it.
I feel.. lost. as people try to deprive me of doing something which I desire to do. I'm thankful. Yet.. I feel deprived. Argh. I can't concentrate as things abt the ministry just keep popping up.
On a brighter note, I almost finished revising jap, and halfway through another paper, halfway through organic chem on Thursday.
I really did study k.
Argh, I can' stop thinking abt ministry work.
Somebody help me.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Fruitful day.
thanks to Christine for tolerating my complaints and giving really helpful suggestions on how I can respond with my current situations now. Yay! Things sound more exciting than they were in my brains!
Even better after prayer.
Kz, sleeping time.
Thanks you guys for the tags.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Yesterday was another angrifying day.
Thank God for Christine and Liqun's presence which helped so much.
I have people who took me for granted.
I have people who did not apologise for something they did wrong and was still rude to me.
I was fumed.
But.. reminded to to do what's right. I can't control people's responses, but I can control mine.
May the Lord help me to be nice to be more willingly.
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Today's session was very enriching. Very clear. Was on jealousy of God. Basically two things,
1) Worship right God (commandment no. 1)
2) Worship right God the right way (commandment no. 2) Not make idols. (interesting how the Israelites made the golden calf to 'worship the God who brought them out of Egypt'. So they wanted to worship God, but they wanted to worship God their way.)
Many implications. He explained very clearly how it's possible to be a Christian and not worship the right God. Just love the way he used examples in a very comical way to bring truths out. He touched on looks, money, studies that could become our 'god' when these things take precedence over our time with God.
Will meditate on the truth and confess my sins.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Friday, November 16, 2007
Thanks for being can't be bothered.
Thanks for being insensitive.
Thanks for not bothering to apologise nor giving an account for my birthday.
Thanks for only being concern about your own life.
Thanks for keeping quiet.
Thanks for saying things which doesn't help in the friendship.
Thanks for trying to be so indirect.
Thanks for keeping things to yourself.
Thanks for not opening up to me.
Thanks for being so immature.
I'm angry.
Drats. Sheila's reminder.
I can't be bothered anymore. Let's just face it. Since you are so uninterested in my life, or can't be bothered, please just be direct about it. Can just make the status clear?
blessed by Father; wHeE
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Went for session with the kiddos.
Today's session was on sovereignty of God. Was expecting more tho esp after doing about the sovereignty part in my qt mat.
But am refreshed.
Reminded of how I should be responding during times of difficulties. And when I reached home, I fished for a note written by Sheila for my birthday. She wrote this hymn inside and I was singing to it..
O rejoice in the Lord
He makes no mistake
He knoweth the end of each path that I take
Cause when I'm tried and purified
I shall come forth as gold
Brings much memories and thanksgivings of how God has kept me through many difficult situations.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Hmm..
Exam period.. Did a bit of blog-surfing and hearing a bit fr ppl.. Esp ppl who juz entered uni life..
The common thing: Everyone desires good results.
Was just thinking... Why do we struggle when we are uncertain if we are going to have good results? Or rather, the results of our expectations? A+ etc?
Is it a Singapore thing? Or a uni thing? Or?
Is it our own expectation? Or pride? Or knowing we can do better if given more time or more effort is put into it?
I struggle too.. The only principle that keeps me aligned now is that God is oso concern about the process.
Also, if I know I've not done well in the process, I should be braver than anyone to face the consequence instead of running away from it.
Tough.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
I'm distracted..
Utterly distracted..
So..
I'll read a whole chunk of the word tonight to realign myself..
blessed by Father; wHeE
Monday, November 12, 2007
Birthday was good. Thank God.
I love all the presents. It was a wonderful mix. And I happen to need them all.
I received (not in order of preference)
1) mp4 player yay!
2) Levi's watch (rawrs!) a very pretty one! it's white!
3) B & J's lip balm (wahaha) mint, purty pencils and vouchers! whee
4) Puma jacket! to huey, no more laughing at me for having jackets that can't keep you warm
5) books =)
6) body shop stuff (perfume and shower gel) from a number of people
7) key chains
8) bag
9) mug (thanks eve =)
10) HUGE TIGGER from sherwin and gang whee..
11) Coin box (hurs..)
12) 2008 calendar from hannah's dad (I'm so touched)
13) harvey norman vouchers! I WILL GET A CAMERA (yay!)
14) money (first time I see many blue notes in angbaos)
15) a key necklace (I really hoped unconsciously someone would give me this!)
16) starbucks vouchers!
21st birthday is a profitable business. hur.. I mean I'm very blessed with all the gifts. Was busy with all the preparation I wasn't even thinking what gifts I really needed or wanted.
Also, thank yous to people who offered to pay for many of the things! The Lord ministered to me that He provides. Thanks yous even more to people who are willing to help even those who have exams the next day etc..
blessed by Father; wHeE
