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Thursday, January 24, 2008
Okay, I'm a narcissist. I can listen to my own recordings over and over and over and over again no matter how horrible they sound.
Song prac ytd was cool. We tied down most parts (in fact all). =) So excited, the song is nice.
Did a quiet time review for the week. I recall this verse that's so precious.
"Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy."
Day 2 of the week's about God's mercy to us. I did a variety of study on God's mercy then. That's one of the verse. It's so timely as I truly struggled, especially at home. I realize there's so much anger and hurt in me that I find it so hard to forgive. Reading this verse reminds me of the beatitudes study we did last year at Hsiao Ling's. The beatitude begins with Blessed are the poor in spirit, then mourn, then meek, then hunger and thirst for righteousness, then merciful.
There's a reason for this order. One has to be poor in spirit to recognize their sinfulness before God, and mourn in response, (meek I forgot, hur), then, not stay in mourning, but to hunger and thirst for God's righteousness. Being merciful comes right after.
The point is, it begins with poor in spirit.
And it happened that as I was helping pastor type the quiet time material for the church, I was typing the commentary of the parable of the unforgiving servant in last part of Matt 18.
Ha.. God's word convicts.
Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Met Hongmei and gang ytd. On my way home that I started looking at the missed calls and messages.
The first one shocked me.
"Jia Ren (a friend whom I haven't talked to for a long time) met with an accident."
Was just thinking the nxt part of the msg was details on where the hospital is to visit him. But.. It went
"(and passed on) The wake is..."
Utterly stunned. I am still in disbelief.
Went for the wake today. Didn't dare to even go near the body at all. Couldn't stand the thought of drawing close to a person who was alive and kicking a while ago and now, he's not going to be so. It's just... a body.
I think... This incident compels me to consider my loved ones.. The biggest fear in all of us is - what if we don't end up the same place. We'll NEVER see each other again.
Times like this make me so tempted to want to beg people to just believe in Jesus Christ. There's utterly no other way.
Please.. Just consider..
Where do you think you'll go after you die?
Death just strikes. So suddenly. He's only 23.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Thursday, January 17, 2008
I feel productive today. I maximized my time and finished what I wanted to.
Am thankful for how this first week of school turned out to be. The chem lecturer made sense out of the notes I was reading. Okay, he prepared the notes. (The lecture wasn't in an LT, but a clsrm in this floor where all the chem lecturers' rooms are situated)
I like the way he explained the concepts. And he's very systematic. He has assigned the dates, topic and everybody for the weekly oral presentation even before the lecture started. Tutorial's problem sets were sent out very early (as tutorial's starting this week unlike oth mods which starts on week 3). Yea, he's gd with his timeline and very efficient.
Jap lecturer was cool too. She's charismatic and can speak English much better than the previous jap lecturers. A happy lady.
Taking government and politics of Singapore. Sounds daunting hor.. But I'm quite excited eh.. Esp after 1st lect today.. The workload's not as bad as I thot it'd be.
The semester looks happening.
And it's times like that that I rmb I need to thank God for whatever He's given. Don't know how it'll go in the weeks to come, but I still have to learn to thank Him. Have honestly confessed to Him that I might find it hard to give thanks and asked Him to guard my steps. =)
I think I can see myself growing in balancing out ministry and other aspects of my life including studies. Thank God. =)
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Finished Conan set 2. More drama in this series. And quite funny. Loved Heiji! (To Suying: hor?!)
Seems like coffee prince is quite in now. I finished the series. Kinda disappointing towards the end. Too many intimate scenes after she revealed her identity. Much watch with discernment. This is one medium by which the advocate works his way.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
School has started. =)
Quite exciting. The lecturer for today was the same as last sem transition metal guy. The guy who sets really "interesting" questions for the term tests.
Then went to print notes. Christine appeared and is attempting a feat. Attempted to get her to help but in the process, was teaching her how to install the printer to her lap from library via sms, somehow the "\\" became "//" when she received the sms. How weird.
Am a hardworking girl today! Went Starbucks before song prac to do work. Black tea latte tastes weird today, maybe it's the skim milk which usually doesn't taste weird with vanilla latte. Hmm..
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Was thinking of how God worked in my entire life. I am reminded that it's so easy for me to just fall into the advocate's hands as I reflected my thoughts (long long time ago), it's indeed by God's grace that I could even serve Him now.
How easy it is for me to desire ppl's praises/ affirmation to prove my self-worth, but I've got to keep reminding myself that I'm worth much in God's eyes - He created me in His image eh. I hope, as I continue to help ppl, they'll praise the Person who gave me wisdom. =)
Matt 5:16
In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.
I think my throat aches after every time I teach, need prayers.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Friday, January 11, 2008
Humans can be so scary sometimes.
Or maybe pathetic.
blessed by Father; wHeE
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Check this out.. Xian zhao pop by on msn and showed me this.. It's holarious
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mx0fy-9NWFg
blessed by Father; wHeE
Yay.. Got my birthday photos..
Went shopping with Swing (nehneh nehnehneh) on Sunday.. Round 2 awaits this week. Yips..
Regretted having no self-control.. Ended up with loadsa coughing on monday and very terrible bowels.. So I ate the green sweet-like medicine.. I've learnt my lesson.
It's tuesday and the bowels are not getting any better. Okay, yes slightly better.. It was so bad on monday I had to cancel my plan in the morning.. But I stayed home and watched conan.. Am going to finish the 15 discs.. Am at the 11th now.. Hopefully my nihongo has improved after watching so much..
疲れた (tsukareta).. ちょっと頭が痛い (chotto atama ga itai)..
ja.. more conan! Buahaha..
blessed by Father; wHeE
Friday, January 04, 2008
Was meditating on the horrible things that has been happening. So discouraged.. And sobs... And Christine called.. And I met her.. And..
It made me feel just a little better.
Haiz..
blessed by Father; wHeE
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Project hotmail is finally finisheth.
from over 600 unread mails to 0 unread mails.
Over 700 mails in the mailbox to 84 mails in the inbox.
Feel more organized. =)
blessed by Father; wHeE
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Yay, will have a cool fellowship group with lq and Christine. We are naming ourselves prov 3130. yeah. In chinese..
Yesterday, we were discussing about singing Christian contemporary songs. Then Christine made a statement and said," I think kids christian songs are the safest." Then I challenged that jokingly.
Example 1:
Jesus loves ME this II know
For the bible tells ME so ...
You get the idea? Jesus only loves MEEE, but doesn't love YOU.
Then we came to this song and I tried editing this song by changing the "I"s to we.
I am a C
I am a C-H
I am a C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N
And I have C-H-R-I-S-T
In my H-E-A-R-T
And I will L-I-V-E E-T-E-R-N-A-L-L-Y
So after changing it'll be (try singing this with all the "S", it's holarious! Liqun couldn't stop laughing)
We are a C
We are C-H-R
We are C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N (s)
And we have C-H-R-I-S-T
In our H-E-A-R-T (s)
And we will L-I-V-E E-T-E-R-N-A-L-L-Y
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As 2008 sets in, thank God for the good start. Have started reading "City on a Hill" by Dr Ryken. He's very engaging. Hopefully can finish the book by this week.
Had thanksgiving dinner at Huey's on 31st. Wonderful crowd and sharing. Played monopoly too! Though I'm still labelling it as the utterly dry and never ending game, it's fun after all! Poor jia yan, just keeps giving away money during the game! wahaha..
Worship team retreat on sunday was exciting. We started playing the huang shang game and all the horrible kiddos (yes kiddos, revenge! wahaha) just wanted to sabo me to be the toilet bowl!! Argh!! Horrible kukus! Hrmph!
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School's coming! I've set my goals for school too! Yeps. Will start to clear up my pig sty..
blessed by Father; wHeE
